john's log

2000

 

JOHN's iMAC JOURNAL began on June 10, 2000

JUNE 10,2000
Here setting up imac. It's been about an hour-lots of things on it-
the background is blue. Worked 11-8. Talked with Babs a lot during the second half of the shift. We talked during lunch about Her wish that Jim jr. had been aborted.
Her evil side showing. Then later we actually got into a rare conversation about me, how
I wasn't happy. Hmm...trying to write but's hard to conventrate. Then finally we gotten
into a flirting sesssion over apiece of missing merchandise and about Julie's purchases. Then she asked me to go out to dinner with her. Only the fourth time we had gotten together outside the store.


Went out to Wendy's with Babs, it went ok, but with her i'm never really sure what
she wants- and so i dont always act very confidnent. I assumed she wanted me to just be her friend and that's what i I tried to think of her as just a friend
well actually that's what i usually do when she is not being super sweet or flirty.
She doesnt' glow like a Prinjcess When she is not being flirty, sweet or it was strange to go out
to dinner with her, but it felt Ok. it wasnt' a very long dinner -i was back in
a little more than an hour. Talked with Michelle Finks about it afterwards.
Trying to tell how were just friends, tyring to convince myself that's all i want.
The only way i am going to convince myself is to find somebody i want more than Babs.
it's hot.
more later. Well changed the color to green.


June 11, 2000-Inventory day at JCP. Rhoads got mad at me at the end of the day, Kathy was nice to me, though -what more.
Monday, June 12, 2000- a wasted day off basically.
June 12, 2000-Here watching a DVD and writing on this screen.
June 13, 2000-or thereabouts Like this font. Feeel weak. Dont like this keyboard. The keys on the botom
are higher than the keys on top..
REal tired at work. Thinking of Babs-how annoying-remember she has a boyfriend. it that hard to get at least some other person
to talk to to on the phone. Was flirting a little with Sasha,well
June 14,200O -have a backache, feel shitty. Perhaps the backache is from the wooden chair. I no longer have much paintence for my medical problems.
LONELY The stupid cats is bothering me. Jim called he's back from what Alburque. I suppose I'm in enough pain now-that any kind of comfort is a relief, Worked 11- to 830., so for a second here , a second there she did
that thing where she walks nearly right into me-but always steps away. talked with Babs during her cigerette break about her sister's graduation for about five minutes,then Donna barged in our conversation, I didn't see BABS at lunch except for one minute at the end a-it's hard cos her boyfriend has first dibs on every fucking minute
of her day(I never feel comfortable asking to spend time with her -i suppose it's always going to be like that -I feel frustated that I am emotionally effected by her.I feel frustated that I cant have a normal friendship.
I do feel frustated cos I know that basically I'm not going to see her very much in the next three days-so bascially a whole weeek will go by wtih about 10 minutes of conversation. I wish i didnt care. I suppose a friend ship with a woman who is attached is different than a friendship with somebody of the
same sex, and always not too deep down is my resentment, my envy at being usurped.
And if we cant talk on the phone -it's not a normal friendship. FRUSTATION WITH LIFE
I AM SO SICK OF BEING ATTACHED TO PEOPLE I CANT HAVE
Actuallly today BAbs wsa nice to me ,but when she is nice i cant help but think it's because things are going well with her boyfriend.. Although she was nice to me it's hard when she doesnt say goodnight,and i knwo
i am going to tommroroow with out seeing her. She didnt mention whether she met the boyfrienmd's mother.

Talked with and Stared at Carol Merrill for a few seconds .I am so lonely that I stare at woman longingly , and dont care if they wonder why. Carole has preety brown eyes,
and brown hair, and good personality - Carol is handicapped in some manner with her legs- that doesnt bother me-I'm just not sure she s particularly intelligent. Some level of intelligence is the one thing i must have in a woman.It's hard for me to hurt somebody-so I not sure I could
give her chance of course-it's not necessarily true that she would give me a chance -with the posssibliltiy of hurting her..
June 15 ,2000 met with jim in Burlington, bought Continental Drifetrs, Local hero DVD.
June 16, 2000=(RRIDAY)-well set up on the computer,but had more trobule with e-mail. Worked a dayshift
went to lunch with Dave Benway. He has a mac, nothing going with him and Sasha, Didnt speak with
Babs really but for usual short bantering,and flisting,unuually we both were in good moods, got her 2000 grad thing for her sister. Ho-hum maybe i dont
really wont to bothered today with the whole pity party i like to hold fro myself. W

June 17,2000-Here after work. Got a Plmouth trash sticker, went to werk, clenaed a ;little, its' very hot even now.
Not much happening today, understaffed at work, but not very busy. Begniing to look bald.
June 19, 20000- Absoultely shittty day. Thought I wasn't going to have another one of these- days -but I do. i suppose unuil i fall for someone else i going
to feel very insecure.
Worked 130 9 . When i walked in the door Barbara complaiend when I called her Babs . Where in
the world ddi that come from-I dont know-I tried to get her resolve it-but of course , I didnt resolve anything-just
made it worse. It botehred me gratly.It's like it's OK for her to make me feel like shit. IT"S HARD BECAUSE I'm THE PERSON WHO NEEDS HER..
That's going to have to change Our rather tenous trip to Dave's concert looks preety unlikely. It's hard to ahve anykind of frienship with Babs-I never feel secuere in any element. My whole day didnt go well . It bothereed me greatlyu. SO LORD YOU DONT WANT ME TO not Give A SHIT>/
OK I DONT GIVe A SHIT.
June 20, 2000-A sleepless worthless night. It's 5in the mroning and it's already light-the longest day of the year.
I just thought of me mom. Finally I cried-I havent reallly cried since may 13 when I i tried to cry in fornt of BABs though I wanted to. I feel trapped again. I know somewohow it's going to end-just how.
I had a bad dream-one image of me in a photo and some thought pattern of how I cant reach LAR/and Tammie. How there just gone, how it doesnt matter if i care-that nothing i can do in this lifetime will get them back, that's how it felt with Babs tonight.. Even life is not as bad as that nightmare,becquse life-the birds sing, there is always somehope
of something elese that will replace my lost friends. I suppose Babs has seen at my best too many times not to want to be my firend but that doesnt matter -there is already fractures-already walls be being built. The phone calls,the
strengtheneng relationship with her boyfriend. my anger, etc all are walls.
JUNE 20,200 951pm...Got back from Boston, Still feeling lousy,,but it gets to the point where you can only
feel so lousy. I felt a litttle out of place amongnst all those accomplished poeple at the Spillane Compound/
Some times it 's not babs and it's not LAR it simpley me I hate me, i hate my life.
Went on Duck ride through Boston, and on the Charles river with Jim, Steph, Missy, and Meg. Was looking
at photos at mikie's house, took steph to work, didi hamburger dnner, Visited PRU MALL.
Miisy was in fairly good mood.

June 21,2000 first day of Summer.
Anyway off today visited with Meg and,Mary, spilla21nes, & jim. Stayed with Meg in the morning though Trecie took care of her, large part of time. Went to Burger King with MEg -to see Titan A.E. Had a lot
fun playing with popcorn, sitting in the back etc. Keptjkoking about seeing
Shaft. Went out to dinner with Jim and Mary. I drove. Well as of today its
been about a month since OI wrote LAR. I am doubtful she will write back.
(she finally wrote back in December 2001.
June 22 ,200 0 (thurs)worked Got into interesting conversations on I,M with people named
Wicked pricneess, Bug038 (gloria) ,and a French Canadian woman-Actually i fogett her
name. Both the bug and the FC woman both were imrpessed by my sweetness.
wicked Pricness reminded me of Tammie. The conversation with Bug was perhaps to long-so i m little weary that i wqs too affectionate.
June 23, 000 Worked alone most of the day- spoke with Babs resloved
our differences, though in a way -i'd rather not(it's too painful) she called me at home (from work) some annoying crisis she was having with her boyfriend-like i care- she had said she we never call so it bothered me. It worried me a little that she said
he would have to hurt somebody if they stole her from him.
I lost some respect for Jim.
in need of a soda, Apparetnly I didn't buy enough.
June 24-the What Convcert today...strange day...worked 930-530. Spoke with Barbara a mumber of times and then went to Dave's concerts with her-it all seemed to go well. (except for my getting lost as usual & my getting pissed
at jenny Tyler for interpting one of my conversations with Barbara.
I di did learn that babs offered to move in with Jim, and she expressed that she now had
feelings for him, My heart sunk-but I had been preparing myself for this happening.Remarkably,it didnt really bother me.
Oh well. OF course, a few hours later she was whining about him-but I have seen that before. HE was borrowing money from her-not a good sign.
we had a good time, thogh today- so maybe will just be friends-but in a lot of way that's ok. it was weird she noted that she also talked in the car,
and that we both thinking about dinner at the same time.
At one point we cou;ldn't sit together so we jpoked that we didnt
know each other. She said hello, I am Laura. (smile)
Spoke with Crystal Macura, apparen;lty she is smart, she has 155 IQ-I skeptical about her age(22)
and how strawberry bllondes /redheads are not necessarily my type. I tried to get her to go to the Benway concert-she said she woul d be reading.

(EDITOR's note -this is one of the first mentions of Crystal in my journal.
I wanted to get to know Crystal better at this time, but was very wary now of getting involved with yet another person I worked with.)
Sunday, june 25, 2000

Did little spoke with Wicked Princess on line...(the first person -that i had a second
conversation with....
i like to go fishing, camping, reading, writing, mini golf, going to parks, cookouts, picnics and most outdoor stuff. i am 27 yrs old. no i am not normally a nasty person, my nic is there because sometimes i can have a quick temper...lol i have a poetry webpage if you want to check it out and sign it.. http://www.cherilynspoetrypage.homestead.com go check it out. i have a chat room set up there and also a guest book. i have been writing for about 4 yrs now. i have a daughter that is almost 7 mos old now..boy she is getting big. she is my pride and joy. i am a single mom so come and get to know me i won't bite unless you try to cyber with me or something. i don't care for that stuff.
My Favorite Quote:
do what makes you happy in your heart

ThatS a description of Cherilyn ,somebody I met on line
Monday, June 26, 2000 once again did little , other ,making to the 3rd level of Bugdom. Had dental appt with doctor doche.
Spoke with Cheriyn for a short time.
Tuesday, June 27, 2000 not much happened today-having p[roblems connecting to Talk City.
Wedneday, June 28, 2000 i's cooler here after work. In a OK but groggy mood. Talked with barbara a good bit
at work. She described Sunday's party ...she doesn't care fro Jesse ,Julie's boyfriend. But she seems tobe
a goner when it comes to Jim, to have the paitence to write about it. Not really- I mean I think I can do
better than her- and that Jim is better for her than me, but that doesnt keep from wanting her. She
says Jim told her he had a Iq of 186. Where that came from-not sure-Apparetnly Jesse does drugs.as well as drink.
It impressed that she gave ample proofof our he listens to her. augh
Once again I am staying up half the night talking to Cherilyn or not talking as the case may be. Ahe just told
me she is not waif-which suprised me-I just realized that I m going to have to face what she looks like
soon and visa versa
THURSDAY-,JUNE 29 HMM JUST GOT TO LEVEL 4 SORT OF BY ACCIDENT. SPOKEWITH DAVE AND MARY. WEIRD DAY-ADELE SUGGESTED SHE WAS GOING TO SET ME UP WITH SOMEBODY
I AM NOT SURE I MADE THE BEST IMPRESSION ON ///ADELE. BABS SEEMED IN A ANTI-JIM
MOOD TODAY, BUT IT CHANGES FROM DAY TO DAY. YESTERDAY IT WAS THE "IF I MARRY
STUFF", TALKED WITH CRYSTAL. BABS BORROWED 10 DOLLARS FROM ME,IT WAS WEIRD
IN A WAY I AM LITTLE MORE AMBILAVIANT ABOUT HER,BUT CREDIT CHERILYN WITH THAT
GOD KNOWS SHE MAKES AN IMPRESSION. WALKED ON THE JETTY AT THE POWER PLANT,
AFTER A BIKE RIDE. GOT INTO A SHORT CONVERSATION WITH BABS ABOUTJIM, IN WHICH
I REFFERED TO DAVID AS A SLEAZEBAG, WHICH BOTHERED HER EVEN THOUGH SHE KNOWS
WHAT HE DID TO HER WAS WRONG. SHE SAID I NEVER MET HIM, BUT I DIDNT HAVE TO MEET
HIM.
Friday June 30, Worked 10 30 to 8 Just heard a disturbing message from the doctor's office. They said they wanted me to get bloodwork from the hospt. Augh-I had kind
of put it all outof mind. it was too much to expect that I could stay happy.
I had exchanged addresses with Cherilyn and a good internet conversation with
her. Her last name is Cheryl Gove. I am smitten but cautious for a thousand reasons.
I do trust her , and do not feel worried. If something happens, fine if it not hopefully
fine too.
Hmm..I said Babs could call and now I am stuck waiting for her to call, when I have to
go to 7-11 and I have to get on the internet ,a nd speak with Jimmy.
Here listening to Gemini, Tawny is all gooey eyed. IF if wasn't for the blood test
i might actually feel comfortable.

Had a strange and disjointed conversation with BABS at work-more and more she seems
more unhappy with Jim, but we will grant that come another day she will be happy with him. I find it annoying to try to have a conversation while working. At one point I
reached some understanding with her about something , we got interupted and then
we both forget what we discovered. I did tell her that "Jim a big boy " and she doesnt
need to be the one taking care of him. I said that Sometime what u need is not what
u want. We also got into a disturbing tangent about the day in Marion-here leaving
open something about how she did like me then. We talked about her emotional neediness.
And jim's .
6-30Late Friday- Spoke on the phone for the first time with Cheryl Gove- It was a bit wieird.
she called me-i was tired and boring. She was so cheerful-it
wasn't what i expected. SHe has a wonderful laugh and a lovely voice.

July 2000

7-1Sat July Worked, spoke on phone with Cheryl,
that she called here again so soon surprised me (I was so tired when she called)
and went over to Jims.
7-2Sunday Spent day with Jim in Marlboro and in Concord. Jim set up my computer.
July 3, 2000 I have dragging. Too little time here in the apartment, too many long days.
Wroorked long day alone. Did really talk with babs , she dragged be my tie to leave,
at the end of the shift but then she didnt want to talk to me- I dislike that about her
she want talk to me at the end of a shift.
July 4 spent day at home-(At some point here i spoke with Cherilyn in phone she was depressed
it was so touching, and felt myself connecting with her better.
Wed, July 5 2000In a rare good mood . I talked to Donna PEn whatever on the phone-
it did not seem to go to well. She interputed me twice for phone calls, and i felt like
i was being judged. Adele didnt know her which dissapoitned me Otherwise the day
went Ok.

LATE WEDNEDAY/EARLY THURSDAY-Talked intimately (in a very sexual way-it wasnt dirty-it was special -with Cherilyn-on the computer,
she sent me her photos. I loved her photos. ESpecially the first one-
a photo of her as a blond in college. She is so serious -i loved the color tones
of the photograph and her round face, There was also a cute photo of her
in high school. And a photo of Rachel.
Thurs,Jul 6, 2000-Went or blood test-but they said they didtn need it. got haircut, spoke with
Donna Pen and Eugene

July 6 Late thurs/Early Friday -phone call # 4 with Cheriyn who called me after i got a little
upset and her computer cracshed. On the internet she told me of dreaming about
kissing me-nobody ever told me that they dreamed of me before_THAT MADE AN
IMPRESSION.
July 7Friday=Cheilyn free day... palyed lots of bugdom
saturday _Party at donna maki's house for Steve Maki's coming home. he doesnt really like me-it always annoyed
me. Spoke with Cherilyn for 4 hours -I think that was the longest long distnace phone call i ever made.
At one point she told me she had looked up my birthday -She remembered my birthday-always a bugaboo
with me. I love Cherlyn's sense of detail. ,,mmmm.
July 8-Saturday
July 9 Sunday -Hera fafter work found my wallet-as usaul slept late. spoek with
Babs during 2 of her 3 breaks.

Told her about my blind date

juy 10Modnay -had blind date
with Donna Pen-whatever
at Applebees's in Franklin.
Went to brother's afterward.

Tuesday, July 11 - Cherilyn got my photo and leter. SHe loved the letter and was plesently surprised by my photo. She sent me two more photos.
She has cool sunglasses on, and it wsa so great to see how she looked now. Night Cherilyn shared so mething bad that STeve had done to her. It was first tome I heard her cry. I understood finally why she hates it there.
We agreed to meet, we will probably take a trip to Indiana to her high shcool reunion.

 

July 11Tuesday-night Cherilyn shared about her most recent bad episode and
we agreed to meetwen
Wedneday morning, July 12 -Cherilyn and I admitted that we cared deeply about each other. I heard the sounds of Rachel for the first time, it gave me great joy to listen in. Later that morning i received a most wonderful
wakeup call from Cherilyn.
Thursday
july 12Wedneday morning -ME AND CHERILYN
are in love!
July 13 Thursday morning -stayed up till 6 am chatting with cherilyn, she was
troubled by what her family did to her. I wanted to hold her so bad.
Saturday,July 15 LEft really late-misplaced
medication, arrived late.
Sunday, July 16 Played with Kids, went to Ben 's for party with prayer group
people. Arrived late at Bessie's.
Monday, July 17, Drove to Gloshcester
Tuesday, July 18-Drove to Jamestown
Wednesday, July 19 -WEnt on boat ride to the Rapahannock River.
Thursday, July 20 went to Great Dismal Swamp, Topeka Steak house, long
expensive converation with Cherilyn, which started with her expressing
concerns about me not wild enough, At some point also ,( probably not
this conversation) the idea of me moving to Alabama was broached
primarly cos of the hoigh rents here make it hard for her to move here.
Moving of course, is not my preference.
Friday, July 21, 2000 went from bessie and Gene's over to John Oneill.
Visted with them.
Saturday, July 22, 2000- Spent middle of day with JimSB, Jd and Meg,
went to Rio center, Burger king, old house, actually encountered the new
owner of the house, saw Wooton, giant , Celebrated JD's birthday
dinosaur style. Spoke with Cherilyn rather much,ps
Sunday, July 23, 2000- Vistited with David and his family betwween 1030
and 1 pm. visited with John Branges bewtxixt 1- 3, Then played with
the kids betweeen 3 and 6 Had pizza, visited with Eugene, Marybeth and
Martin at mary's and then saw Lion King. Talked with Cherilyn rather
quickly.
Monday ,July 24, 2000 -Around 9:30 pm. Left early from Frederick, J
about 7 40 pm. Stopped a few times early. Got in around 540 so thats' still
10 hours. Got bogged down a few places. Went on Gw bridge, Noticed Empire
State Building. Cherilyn and I had her first spat, it has made me depressed.
She was upset at the abrubt way I ended last nights phone call.
There was no slight intended ,I just needed sleep ,and wanted for once to have
a short phone call. But the spat probably brought out both of our doubts,
Then she started talking about doing mushrooms, which made me uncomfortable and got distracted a number
of times , partly cos of the phone , partly cos of the dog, the baby Steve, and
of course it broiught out my doubt about whether I bore her. \
Friday, July 28-Worked today-late as usual did some room cleaning before work.
Got Money order for Cherilyn-it somehow made me uncomfortable.
I hte having doubts about our leationship It makes
me uncomofrtabgle to be continaully lviing beyond my means-to not even know
what my balences are. Christine is leaving on a leave

saturday... i am tired and not overly hyapy..Cyrstal put her hands voer my eyes.
MMaybne she liks me
Monday, July 31-Early in the nmorning cherrilyn and i had phone & internet
conversations about our relationship. she was concerned that i dont find her
attractive, possibly a concern ,but i have other problems with her and i told her about
those. It was all very upsetting , at first it seemed like the whole thing would be over.
But we agreed to go ahead and meet. spoke with dave and Michele finks about
it at work (but only obliquely )

AUGUST 2000
August 3, 2000 Thurdday-Barbara has left JCP Late Thursday I tlaked with Cherilyn but she
wanted to get off the phone to get on the internet. She's turning the tables on me.

Friday august 4. Felt lousy and irritable all day. Kathy told me to stop using accents,
and complained about the schedule problems caayused by my trip, I got upset
at Daine Garber, Barbara tHomas dropped into the store (for the last timeto pick up her check but didnt say hello to me
not writing in the log as much.

August 10, 2000- preety much ignoring the log as u can see, not much happening.
today though i did take cat to vet, i think he urinated in car, have a big zit
on my lower face.

TRIP WITH CHERILYN GOVE

8-12 Centerville, AL-Driven to airport by Jim. Delayed in Providence.
Arrived late around 5:30 pm. Arrived in Brent around 7pm . Met at pizza Hut.
Took pizza home. Cherilyu was dressed in a light brown dress. She looked sexy
and shy. We hit it off quite well.

8-13 Centerville, AL-Slept late -drove up to Tusacloosa with baby. Cherilyn was
quite unpleasent about my driving.

8-14 Middlesboro,KY. After a prayer we drove off to Ky via Chatanooga,
Knoxville, Cumberland Gap tunnel. Left baby off at Aunt's house.

8-15 Chicago,Il- we drove off to Chicago via indianapolis.

8-16 Chicago,IL-slept late , went to Sears Tower, Lincoln park

8-17 Michigan City , IN -Went on boat ride on chicago River, drove over to Michigan City

8-18Goshen,IN went to medical appointment, visited with jean, cherilyn's father etc.
8-19 Goshen, IN

8-20 Mishawacka,IN

8-21 Middlesboro,KY

8-22 Centerville,AL

8-23 Flight back from Birmingham to Providence. jim picked me up in corolla.
WEnt to Providence Place Mall with Jim. Saw Everest Imax film

8-24-Worked after picking up cat. was late to work.chatted with Cherilyn on
talk city, agreed to loan her the money for her move. It made me feel uncomfortable, partly cos as often is the case -she was disagreeable.
It's hard cos I often do not get a good feeling about the whole thing.-
8-26-sunday TRip to new Hampshire with joe.
8-27 Monday
8-28-tuesdtay
8-29-WEd Cherilyn's birthday spoke with a couple times,
8-30 thurs

SEPTEMBER 2000----
9-1-2000-Jim's house Early Friday morning -Cherilyn got brutally upset me with over the internet. she said not to contact her and WE ARE BROKEN UP...Got up early to take out Jim's weeds. Worked 1030to 7 pm. Cherilyn left a message,which
I responded to at the cost of 1700 dollars.
agrred to lend her rest of moeny. Spok with Barbara
thomas for but a short time. Left message with Donna...

 

9-2-2000 the day of jjjim's party. it seemed to go well. He had at least
2o people/.

9-3-2000 Not writing much here watching a special on Venice. Sunday it is.
in a peacecul mood. Finally talked with Donna P.
9-6-2000
9-7? 2000 eating bad pork, ice cream and salad, as usual wasted evening.
spoke with Crystal Macura a couple of times, she is half irish on her mother's
side. kathy sick two days in a row now.
9-8 forgot about steph's b-day, spoke with Jim and cherilyn, worked
Determinded that i had basically trashed my savings acct due to my assoc.
with cherilyn.

9-9Worked 1- 930 shift & slpet in...
9-10- worked with becky, played on internet tyryingto find nantucket acc.
9-12 Day off. Spoke with cherilyn, john b, did some room cleaning,,errands...
9-13 Wrote in here but it must have not been saved...
9-16 Went to nantucket
9-17 went on boat in Nantucket
9-18 retunrned to mainland, had flat tire

9-21 fixed flat tire. over 300 dollars...augh.
Worked
9-22 Friday..Not writing much here,as this isnt even one page for the month.
its 8 in the morning here, i am not a morning person, through my usual
bits of bad dreams i had a couple minutes with joe macanallen in a room
with windows all around on 3 of 4 sides. each of the windows had a similiar
view of a blue sky and some other building and we were joking about Canada,
and coins or something, it seemed funny, though i cant remember the joke
now.
9-23 worked all day- did a lot of TTR.
Sunday 9-24, slept late spoke with John Branges who called aroun d 11 in the morning. Off today -cleaning
Though really got nowwhere onthe boxes, just cleaned car, bathroom and the
two big piles near my bed, and messed with the computer. Spoke with Cherilyn.
It doesn't seem to get any better talking to her. it gets worse I dont feel comfortable saying
anything to her on the phone, listening is ok, but that only goes so far,since
what she has to say is depressing. I t felt really soul destroying to talk to her-
cos it's like i am not there- and i dont see much point in trying, cos what
is interesting about me , is not interesting to her.
tue9-26 Worked past two days , in better mood today.
9-28 thursday spoke with jim on phone he's been in a bad mood .
9-29Bessie and Gene leaving for Irelan d today. Moved frig , computers and tv around.
9-30Early Satuday morn-here playing on Bugdom, still trying to get through level
5. Friday night i worked with el kathay alone. I found myself staring at
Crystal. i asked what her birthday is-it's 11-24. But i am not sure if it matters - i wonder if i am meant to be in
a relationship now. I want to spend time with her, and talk to her on the
phone, i miss her, but i have a bad feeling about it.
got phone and credit call bills and thankfully not much more from the
debachle on it.

Thought of possibly doing bike tour of Hollan d combinedwith some other desitation either Irelandor Norway/sweden

10-1. Worked alone at JCp. Got swamped on occasion. someitme dead.
Amy Cowen covered my lunch. Watched Sydney's olympic closing ceremeoneies after work. Kylie Minogue sang "Dancing Queen".
Spent a lot of time playing Bugdom, and still didnt get through level 5.
Spoke just a second or two with Crystal. It's annoying i want to get to
know her, but i am having trouble working up an abudnamce of enthusisasm.
10-2 off, spoke with jeff hinners
10-3 worked ,tired. first presidential debate.
10-4 Finally got through level five and level six as well.
10-5 or thereabouts- here after work. veep debate rather boring.
In a good mood but frazzled. mentioned to Crystal about getting together.
(perhaps inspired by what sasha did to her hair.

10-6 Crystal asked when we would get together and we agreed on Tommorow
Saturday, Worked, Finally completed bugdom, but used cheats, still have
to do last two levels without cheats. Had trouble sleeping, thought of
Cherilyn. Realizing that i will probably never hold her again.
Spoke with Barbara and with donna p
October 7, 2000

-2000diane garber's 40 th birthday. Overslept. (Crystal oversplept too)


Worked 1030-630. Went
out with Crystal Ann )Macura. Picked her up at her over garage apartment.
She showed me her apartment. she was likable, always made me feel comfortable.
Her hair looked beautiful. We walked down to Plymouth harbor and then back to Sam Diego's We went out to eat dinner,
and then went to see
Meet the Parents at independence mall. Drove by my house, and then dropped
her back home. Gave her a hug. i had a couple of moments when i was impresssed
by her ,when she said she was a writer, and when she said she liked to get in
a car in travel, (i was like "wow" girl after my very heart).


10-8 Visted with Jimin Harvard Square,
didnt get my webpages done(augh-he puts it off). Got some shelves.
1012- Worked stressful day, Crystal didnt talk with me, and she was
never at the salon counter to talk to, im not sure it should have bothered
me but it did, (it turned out she was sick and worked a shorter shift.
10-13 Worked 1230 to 9. Got upset (though i kept it to myself,
when heather came by to pick up Crystal's check. (i began to think
that crystal was ignoring me -and it started to feel like it did with
barbara).Oddly , at that point , Crystal came over to talk to me finally, told me she had been
sickand thus had not been working today (and she worked only half of thursdays shift) and that tommorow she had to hang out with her mother,
told me her phone works now, though i felt better that she talked
to me, their were too many mixed signals (mainly that she walked away so quickly,
but also that she hasnt bothered to call. to truly make me feel better.
10-14 off mildly sick so didnt do anything, i had planned to work on apartment.
All i did was load up cd's onto a shelf.
Spoke with crystal on the phone. She called back, it reaasusured me a bit,
and i sort of went back to not taking things too seriosuly.
10-15 off again ..Missed churc h, slept late, moved some boxes down to the basement,
Went over to Aunt Mikies' Gene and Bess were back, Mary Splaine was
there and Joe. G&B didnt talk much about the trip. which was annoying,
partly cos Bess was cooking, mary looked good, we talked a lot about
people seem to expect more out of standard of living today. Jim
called mikies from California. i drove back through Dorchester cos
93/3 was all backed up.
When I got back I spoke with Cherilyn(for the first time in three weeks)
she still was in kind of a surly mood, today was
rachel elizabeth gove's first birthday, I did talk a bit more trying to stay in the conversation. she got an apartment and is going to move her stuff from Alabama.
Of course i didnt really talk about myself or mention Crystal. I did mention
Crystal to Mikie (though i still wonder if am just jinxing myself!)


10-18Wednesday nught-here feeling depressed -about Crystal, i just have this fear
that it's never going to happen and that worse i'll go thorough what i went
through with barbara again. I just feel very tenative like i dont want to
even try, and i feel that way abut life too, the weird thing about barbara
was that somehow for a time i was able to dilude myself into to changing
myself for 40 days. It's hard at first i thought hey maybe god is providing me
with the answer to why things didnt work out with lar (and babs , and tammie,
and cherilyn )with Crystal, but then I thought what if she is not the one
-then here i go again. Here ..... Listening to some strange message left on my
machine-long and unintelliglible. Amy Cowen's last day-no cake.
10-19- Still depressed i think. did see Crystal at work it went ok but not great.
She is so likable, she talked about her cat cuddling with her, and about delivering phone books.
i just fear that i am
going to fall in love with her and then i wont able to be her friend.
It hards to tell if she is just stadnoffish sometimes cos she can be shy with people
or if it's me. Work went badly in that was really nervous around rob, and in fact i am
that way around customers cos i dont have the mental energy to be mentally
sharp most of the time. I just sense i am in incapalbe of being lile a manager
or something cos i give a bad impression.
10-20- Off today..wasted a lot of time searching for check. Went to Dave benway'sconcet.
At elk hall,
brandy and Chritsine brought their children. Then i was surprised when i got home by having
Cystal leave a message on my machine, I called her back and we spoke for three hours , it went ery well.

·1021- Saturday Worked 10-to 630, went out with cyrstal ton second date- to a thai restaurant and then out to see the movie
pay it forward, Kisssed crystal ....
·10-22 3rd date off today Cleaned in room, got haircut by Crystal , got video membership rented Titantic went over to Crystal's
apartment for the first time to just visit. We made out a little after the movie. (i also rented
St-first contact.
10-23 off didnt accomplish much...
1025 worked- just spoke with Crystal-we are not getting together tonight -i am dissapointed but of course, i realized
it was unrealistic. (she has to work tommorrow at 10)i was pleasenton the phone, her voice is so high on the phone.
Otherwise an ok day, Barbara's sister and father showed up
at JCp today.
10-26 Worked 1-9 boring day...spoke with cm a few times...Talked with Crystal after work on phone which
went well.
·Friday*10-27-Worked daytime. Had a conversation with Cherilyn , she called left a message -and made
me call twice to finally connect upw ith her, she wanted to borrow money-and of course i said no-the phone call seemed to end
ok,
i told her about Crystal. went out to East Bay Grill with Crystal, watched romeo andJuliet at her apartmetn.
WE made love all the way for the first time, which i wasnt totally comfortable with.
I loved being with her,especially holding her, though I couldnt sleep
, but i was subdued in a way ,cos i sense some limit to how she feels,
and i begin to realize sheis similiar to Barbara and Cherilyn in that she is strong willed. Mostly i am insecure. She
talked about relationships being a day-to day thing- and made a remark about not kissing and telling. and i found that troublesome.
10-28 Strange day at work-fire alarms went off twice Kim came in the building went to party at anne hebsch house.
It felt a little awkward at work.
did nt go over or speak to Crystal after work(cos she was tired and slept 8 pm to 8 am.
·10-29 Sunday off work. Went over to Visit with Crystall -watched Interview with a Vampire. We made love for the
second time,,this
time it felt less awkward. I stayed the night, i could sense she liked me as a lover. The best part is always the beginning
for me. I slept over and we cuddled in the morning. she came twice She told me afterward she didnt want it to end.
I woke up at her house . She had to go to a hair class.,
10-30 Monday - I tried to take a nap I went home i tried to take a nap. Got a couple
things done. I spoke to her over the phone in the evening, and we a had a good conmversation i talked to her
about myself. ( either this day or next ) we had a conversation where we i was manueverd to telling her how
i feel that yes i loved her. I felt uncomfortble with the conversation ,but she realized that i cared about her. IT impressed her
when i said i would go over to visit her sister with her.
·10-31 Halloween .Tuesday. Wore father john outfit. Michele and donna were nuns . Crystal called me at wJCP for the first time. Went over to Crystal's and watched
center stage. spoke with Jim briefly. Crystal got upset cos i hadnt come over right away. She was worried about me. Crystal told me about some problems with diabetes tests, at her apartment i formally
asked her to be my girlfriend ("there's nothing more i want in the world than to be your boyfriend") and she agreed.

·11-1 Wednesday -worked, spoke with barbara Thomas , about date with crystal at first it seemed to go ok, but then i realized i wasnt comfortable talking with her. that was hard -it s like I fought through all that with her and were not even friends. I spokewith jimzb he seemed depressed.
W ent over to Crystal's afterward-even though i was tired. I read some of her (Writing) papers. Ithink this was the time I held her and she fell asleep in my arms! The she got up went over to her bed and she almost went to sleep but then John lennon came on and we started talking, I brought her to orgasm even though we both clothed
·11-2 Thursday took Crystal out to food court for lunch (it was the first time we had gone to lunch at JCP)
she showed me the ring she wanted to buy.
later- i just here despondent-crystal came over to my apartment-and it just didnt go well. She wouldnt eat or drink
, the landlord was rude to her. She was rude about my shoes. she made a comment about my hair, she didnt like
the idea of me taking her picture. I am overeacting of course, but i suppose i need to be cautious.
She liked Tawny.
but i think i begin to realize that I need to know that somebody likes me for me, for the things that are likable,.
It has been going well with Crystal in many ways, there is chemistry. and l do like her a lot, but somebody really
has to like me, (and I 'm not convinced of that yet)not just like me for the way that i like her.
But i have flaws., and frankly she doesnt have many. The only good thing that came out of it was
that i cleaned my room. It's hard i was so happy the past few days but things went
bad before i had a chance to fill in the log.
·11-3 Friday Worked ... Went over to Crystal's after work (she was slightly delayed due to problems with a client's color removal)
went over to her house watched a little of Fleetwood Mac -the Dance, and then The TRUTH ABOUT CATS AND DOGS.
We had a conversation about why I was upset. Eventually i felt better.
Went over to feed a pet with her. After the movie she sat in my lap and at one point a rush of a emotion came over her,
I had finally broken through emotionally with a woman that i wanted. She started to pleasure me,
and she took my pants down, and so forth. WE listened to Sara Mclaughlin.I am not sure if this point I told her
how i would used to play the song " Building a Mystery" earlier in the year, and apparently she would do the same.
I stayed over, but kept my pants on as we slept. We both had to work the
next morning,

·11-4 Saturday Worked =the big day of the biggest sale thing was a bit of a bust only did 98,000(instead of a goal of 140 to 160) then went out to dinner at Paparazzi's for Jim's birthday.·It went very well, other then the fact that we seemed to have gotten different times in mind. I was actually on time, and went right in. Jack& mike ,Treeci , Jimmy were there, I had chicken pizza. Crystal seemed perceptive about my relatives and was complimentary. i got Jimmy a Star Trek DVD. (the city on the edge of forever)
i wrapped the gift myself.
11-5 Sunday -last day of the biggest sale. Worked with Dottie and Becky. Gave Crystal a flower from the gift wrap dept.
I Gave her a hug in the salon. She trimmed my beard at the salon. Spoke with Mikie who was pleasent although not
overlly talkativ e to me about Crystal. Crystal mentioned coming over to my apartment, she also had mentioned
taking her photo in the leave s(a prior day) indidicating that she had thought about what had bothered me.
We talked n the phone in the late evening which ended funny.
·11-6 Monday worked in Dennis Went over to Crystals -early cos she didnt work. We had a dinner and took a walk.
We walked by some horse farms in the dark, she told me about why her family had split (which explained why she didnt
like kissing since the whole thing involved incest.)
Her cat , Luna acted strange .I tickled and was rough with Crystal in a fun way. We made love. She came slowly and longly and i came finally like i was enjoying it. She told me she loved me for the first time. (she said something about how it got better each time) .
·11-7 worked evening shift lethargicTuesday election -went over to crystal's had pizza, watched a movie-WHAT DREAMS
ARE MADE OF. Whi ch i liked but fell asleep while watching. Slept over-we were both more tired so we slept and did not make out.
11-8wednesday- spent morning with Crystal going on errands. off from work-wasted day went with uncle joe to faiport concert at Sculler's jazz Club went over to crystal afterwards but she was asleep.
·11-9 Thursday off yet again-slept late and wasted afternoon. Went over to Crystals landlords to watch ER. Once again Crystal was amazed at my special touch with animals. She mentioned that whenyour in love with somebody you miss
them.
WE went back to her apartment,,s he discussed clothes, she showed a cookbook, she took a shower. She put on
a nightgown.
Somehow i ended up sleeping over, and we made love yet again. Once again it was different ,this time i took
for ever to come, partly cos i wasnt that hard, partly cos i didnt want to stop she was saying such things aboutme,
how much she loved me, she called me her true love, that i was the best lover she ever had, it was almost too much, oh i loved being with her,
her lips and mouth and hair looked so beautiful in the dark.
She then held me and tried to get me to relax. I couldt for some reason-she turns me on so much. I slept over
but had to get up early to go to work.
11-10 worked 930 to 6, donna malo'slast day. Saw Crystal at work, I went to get groceries and wasted time on
the computer after work, spoke with Crystal on phone.
·11-11 gave Crystal flowers (had them delivered) slept over at Crystal's . Apprently the cat was a problem whilst
I slept over.
11-12 off -Visited jim, did asso iate night with Crystal (she helped me buy clothes),went to dinsner, Crystal had problem wtih animals. Left in a slight problem, Crystal called.
11-13 Worked, Crystal stopped by work but didnt come over to talk to me cos she brought the dog,
Saw Crystal after her shift went out to Pizzeria Uno. Watched two videos-our 8mm and 3 musketeers, I left around
2pm for the second night in row we didnt make out (she's slightly more iritatable cos of her period, and cos of the
diabetes problems)
·11-14 Tuesday spent much of day with Crystal , met her mom
11-15 Wednedday worked night shift vistied with Crystal for a hour and half
·11-16Thursday-Mr Durant came over , didnt visit us , Worked 1030-7 ,,,, , went to lunch with her at jcp
viisteed crystal, we made love? it was very sweet , she (her whole body felt so good under me, i almost cried.
She was upset cos they told they were not going to give her a promised bonus at her
job, and cos she had a doctor's appt about problems with her diabetes.
·11-17 friday, worked Went out to dinner, Went over to Crystal's played emperor of china
·11-18 Saturday Worked , she made me dinner. Went over to crystal's played monolpoly, stayed over made love, i was hard quickly, so i t kind of ended too soon.
11-19 sunday worked 1030 to 6 didnt see crystal. (Crystal got fired from her job)
11-21 mon worked ,saw crystal
11-22 tueworked left for new jersey
11-23 wed arrived in va had dinner at bess's
11-23 thuthanksgiving
11-24 fri had lunhc with mary, and jim.was going to leave at 4 but didnt
11-25 sat drove from va to nj, had long talk with missy.
11-26sun-off drove home from new jesrsey, brougth crystal a flowr and a dolphin, stayed overnight at crystals it was vry tender
and yet electric.
11-27 mon worked nottoo enthusiastically was sick went home early
11-28 tue
wed 11-29-off
thursday 11-30

1-2 12-1 Friday Got car sticker
12-2 Saturday,went to dinner with jim stayed over at Crystal's Got into a discussion, then things went ok, but still was impotent
12-3 Sunday worked 11-6 . Did a couple of things with Crystal, had pizza with her ,ended up staying over,
it didnt go well-we got into another discussion this was the first time that i didnt feel like touching
crystal or staring into her eyes.
12-34 Monday morning Came home from Crystal's to find patty cleaning up my bath.
Monday evening -i was late to work today again cos i didnt realize what time i was scheduled.
12-5 tues
12-6 wed
12-7 thu
12-8 fri
12-8 friday
somewhere here crystal broke up with me, but quickly reversed things it was a hard experei ce.
12-9 Weird saturday- spent the morning doing errands ,but what did i really accomplish.
12-11 Monday
12-12 Bush Vs Gore election saga ended with Surpreme Court ruling
12-13 Wednesday -Here at home slightly wasting away....Thoughts of playing with danny and a couple
of writerly ideas emerged in my mind, but were already forgeotten. to think to use this brain seems to
be an unlikely occurence.
12-23 Saturday not writng much here!
12-27wed doctors appt went over to mikie's saw Mary and kids -slept over at crystal's/
12-28
12-30 Worked 4-10, went over to crystal's watched LITTLE WOMAN
12-31New years eve-feel lousy, CRystal was upset over new years -i am sick and dont feel like going over there
or too Falmouth-I dont feel like do anything that requires effort. She inivited her sisters and ,mom over.January 2001
1-1 went to hynanis with crystal

 

FIRST MONTHS WITH CRYSTAL

OCTOBER 2001 -MAY 2002

10-1. Worked alone at JCp. Got swamped on occasion. someitme dead.
Amy Cowen covered my lunch. Watched Sydney's olympic closing ceremeoneies after work. Kylie Minogue sang "Dancing Queen".
Spent a lot of time playing Bugdom, and still didnt get through level 5.
Spoke just a second or two with Crystal. It's annoying i want to get to
know her, but i am having trouble working up an abudnamce of enthusisasm.
10-2 off, spoke with jeff hinners
10-3 worked ,tired. first presidential debate.
10-4 Finally got through level five and level six as well.
10-5 or thereabouts- here after work. veep debate rather boring.
In a good mood but frazzled. mentioned to Crystal about getting together.
(perhaps inspired by what sasha did to her hair.

10-6 Crystal asked when we would get together and we agreed on Tommorow
Saturday, Worked, Finally completed bugdom, but used cheats, still have
to do last two levels without cheats. Had trouble sleeping, thought of
Cherilyn. Realizing that i will probably never hold her again.
Spoke with Barbara and with donna p
810-7 -2000diane garber's 40 th birthday. Overslept. (Crystal oversplept too)
Worked 1030-630. Went
out with Crystal Ann )Macura.
Picked her up at her over garage apartment.
She showed me her apartment. she was likable, always made me feel comfortable.
Her hair looked beautiful. We walked down to Plymouth harbor and then back to Sam Diego's We went out to eat dinner,
and then went to see
Meet the Parents at independence mall. Drove by my house, and then dropped
her back home. Gave her a hug. i had a couple of moments when i was impresssed
by her ,when she said she was a writer, and when she said she liked to get in
a car in travel, (i was like "wow" girl after my very heart).
10-8 Visted with Jimin Harvard Square,
didnt get my webpages done(augh-he puts it off). Got some shelves.
1012- Worked stressful day, Crystal didnt talk with me, and she was
never at the salon counter to talk to, im not sure it should have bothered
me but it did, (it turned out she was sick and worked a shorter shift.
10-13 Worked 1230 to 9. Got upset (though i kept it to myself,
when heather came by to pick up Crystal's check. (i began to think
that crystal was ignoring me -and it started to feel like it did with
barbara).Oddly , at that point , Crystal came over to talk to me finally, told me she had been
sickand thus had not been working today (and she worked only half of thursdays shift) and that tommorow she had to hang out with her mother,
told me her phone works now, though i felt better that she talked
to me, their were too many mixed signals (mainly that she walked away so quickly,
but also that she hasnt bothered to call. to truly make me feel better.
10-14 off mildly sick so didnt do anything, i had planned to work on apartment.
All i did was load up cd's onto a shelf.
Spoke with crystal on the phone. She called back, it reaasusured me a bit,
and i sort of went back to not taking things too seriosuly.
10-15 off again ..Missed churc h, slept late, moved some boxes down to the basement,
Went over to Aunt Mikies' Gene and Bess were back, Mary Splaine was
there and Joe. G&B didnt talk much about the trip. which was annoying,
partly cos Bess was cooking, mary looked good, we talked a lot about
people seem to expect more out of standard of living today. Jim
called mikies from California. i drove back through Dorchester cos
93/3 was all backed up.
When I got back I spoke with Cherilyn(for the first time in three weeks)
she still was in kind of a surly mood, today was
rachel elizabeth gove's first birthday, I did talk a bit more trying to stay in the conversation. she got an apartment and is going to move her stuff from Alabama.
Of course i didnt really talk about myself or mention Crystal. I did mention
Crystal to Mikie (though i still wonder if am just jinxing myself!)
10-18Wednesday nught-here feeling depressed -about Crystal, i just have this fear
that it's never going to happen and that worse i'll go thorough what i went
through with barbara again. I just feel very tenative like i dont want to
even try, and i feel that way abut life too, the weird thing about barbara
was that somehow for a time i was able to dilude myself into to changing
myself for 40 days. It's hard at first i thought hey maybe god is providing me
with the answer to why things didnt work out with lar (and babs , and tammie,
and cherilyn )with Crystal, but then I thought what if she is not the one
-then here i go again. Here ..... Listening to some strange message left on my
machine-long and unintelliglible. Amy Cowen's last day-no cake.
10-19- Still depressed i think. did see Crystal at work it went ok but not great.
She is so likable, she talked about her cat cuddling with her, and about delivering phone books.
i just fear that i am
going to fall in love with her and then i wont able to be her friend.
It hards to tell if she is just stadnoffish sometimes cos she can be shy with people
or if it's me. Work went badly in that was really nervous around rob, and in fact i am
that way around customers cos i dont have the mental energy to be mentally
sharp most of the time. I just sense i am in incapalbe of being lile a manager
or something cos i give a bad impression.
10-20- Off today..wasted a lot of time searching for check. Went to Dave benway'sconcet.
At elk hall,
brandy and Chritsine brought their children. Then i was surprised when i got home by having
Cystal leave a message on my machine, I called her back and we spoke for three hours , it went ery well.

·1021- Saturday Worked 10-to 630, went out with cyrstal to a thai restaurant and then out to see the movie
pay it forward, Kisssed crystal ....
·10-22 off today Cleaned in room, got haircut by Crystal , got video membership rented Titantic went over to Crystal's
apartment for the first time to just visit. We made out a little after the movie. (i also rented
St-first contact.
10-23 off didnt accomplish much...
1025 worked- just spoke with Crystal-we are not getting together tonight -i am dissapointed but of course, i realized
it was unrealistic. (she has to work tommorrow at 10)i was pleasenton the phone, her voice is so high on the phone.
Otherwise an ok day, Barbara's sister and father showed up
at JCp today.
10-26 Worked 1-9 boring day...spoke with cm a few times...Talked with Crystal after work on phone which
went well.
·Friday*10-27-Worked daytime. Had a conversation with Cherilyn , she called left a message -and made
me call twice to finally connect upw ith her, she wanted to borrow money-and of course i said no-the phone call seemed to end
ok,
i told her about Crystal. went out to East Bay Grill with Crystal, watched romeo andJuliet at her apartmetn.
WE made love all the way for the first time, which i wasnt totally comfortable with.
I loved being with her,especially holding her, though I couldnt sleep
, but i was subdued in a way ,cos i sense some limit to how she feels,
and i begin to realize sheis similiar to Barbara and Cherilyn in that she is strong willed. Mostly i am insecure. She
talked about relationships being a day-to day thing- and made a remark about not kissing and telling. and i found that troublesome.
10-28 Strange day at work-fire alarms went off twice Kim came in the building went to party at anne hebsch house.
It felt a little awkward at work.
did nt go over or speak to Crystal after work(cos she was tired and slept 8 pm to 8 am.
·10-29 Sunday off work. Went over to Visit with Crystall -watched Interview with a Vampire. We made love for the
second time,,this
time it felt less awkward. I stayed the night, i could sense she liked me as a lover. The best part is always the beginning
for me. I slept over and we cuddled in the morning. she came twice She told me afterward she didnt want it to end.
I woke up at her house . She had to go to a hair class.,
10-30 Monday - I tried to take a nap I went home i tried to take a nap. Got a couple
things done. I spoke to her over the phone in the evening, and we a had a good conmversation i talked to her
about myself. ( either this day or next ) we had a conversation where we i was manueverd to telling her how
i feel that yes i loved her. I felt uncomfortble with the conversation ,but she realized that i cared about her. IT impressed her
when i said i would go over to visit her sister with her.
·10-31 Halloween .Tuesday. Wore father john outfit. Michele and donna were nuns . Crystal called me at wJCP for the first time. Went over to Crystal's and watched
center stage. spoke with Jim briefly. Crystal got upset cos i hadnt come over right away. She was worried about me. Crystal told me about some problems with diabetes tests, at her apartment i formally
asked her to be my girlfriend ("there's nothing more i want in the world than to be your boyfriend") and she agreed.

·11-1 Wednesday -worked, spoke with barbara Thomas , about date with crystal at first it seemed to go ok, but then i realized i wasnt comfortable talking with her. that was hard -it s like I fought through all that with her and were not even friends. I spokewith jimzb he seemed depressed.
W ent over to Crystal's afterward-even though i was tired. I read some of her (Writing) papers. Ithink this was the time I held her and she fell asleep in my arms! The she got up went over to her bed and she almost went to sleep but then John lennon came on and we started talking, I brought her to orgasm even though we both clothed
·11-2 Thursday took Crystal out to food court for lunch (it was the first time we had gone to lunch at JCP)
she showed me the ring she wanted to buy.
later- i just here despondent-crystal came over to my apartment-and it just didnt go well. She wouldnt eat or drink
, the landlord was rude to her. She was rude about my shoes. she made a comment about my hair, she didnt like
the idea of me taking her picture. I am overeacting of course, but i suppose i need to be cautious.
She liked Tawny.
but i think i begin to realize that I need to know that somebody likes me for me, for the things that are likable,.
It has been going well with Crystal in many ways, there is chemistry. and l do like her a lot, but somebody really
has to like me, (and I 'm not convinced of that yet)not just like me for the way that i like her.
But i have flaws., and frankly she doesnt have many. The only good thing that came out of it was
that i cleaned my room. It's hard i was so happy the past few days but things went
bad before i had a chance to fill in the log.
·11-3 Friday Worked ... Went over to Crystal's after work (she was slightly delayed due to problems with a client's color removal)
went over to her house watched a little of Fleetwood Mac -the Dance, and then The TRUTH ABOUT CATS AND DOGS.
We had a conversation about why I was upset. Eventually i felt better.
Went over to feed a pet with her. After the movie she sat in my lap and at one point a rush of a emotion came over her,
I had finally broken through emotionally with a woman that i wanted. She started to pleasure me,
and she took my pants down, and so forth. WE listened to Sara Mclaughlin.I am not sure if this point I told her
how i would used to play the song " Building a Mystery" earlier in the year, and apparently she would do the same.
I stayed over, but kept my pants on as we slept. We both had to work the
next morning,

·11-4 Saturday Worked =the big day of the biggest sale thing was a bit of a bust only did 98,000(instead of a goal of 140 to 160) then went out to dinner at Paparazzi's for Jim's birthday.·It went very well, other then the fact that we seemed to have gotten different times in mind. I was actually on time, and went right in. Jack& mike ,Treeci , Jimmy were there, I had chicken pizza. Crystal seemed perceptive about my relatives and was complimentary. i got Jimmy a Star Trek DVD. (the city on the edge of forever)
i wrapped the gift myself.
11-5 Sunday -last day of the biggest sale. Worked with Dottie and Becky. Gave Crystal a flower from the gift wrap dept.
I Gave her a hug in the salon. She trimmed my beard at the salon. Spoke with Mikie who was pleasent although not
overlly talkativ e to me about Crystal. Crystal mentioned coming over to my apartment, she also had mentioned
taking her photo in the leave s(a prior day) indidicating that she had thought about what had bothered me.
We talked n the phone in the late evening which ended funny.
·11-6 Monday worked in Dennis Went over to Crystals -early cos she didnt work. We had a dinner and took a walk.
We walked by some horse farms in the dark, she told me about why her family had split (which explained why she didnt
like kissing since the whole thing involved incest.)
Her cat , Luna acted strange .I tickled and was rough with Crystal in a fun way. We made love. She came slowly and longly and i came finally like i was enjoying it. She told me she loved me for the first time. (she said something about how it got better each time) .
·11-7 worked evening shift lethargicTuesday election -went over to crystal's had pizza, watched a movie-WHAT DREAMS
ARE MADE OF. Whi ch i liked but fell asleep while watching. Slept over-we were both more tired so we slept and did not make out.
11-8wednesday- spent morning with Crystal going on errands. off from work-wasted day went with uncle joe to faiport concert at Sculler's jazz Club went over to crystal afterwards but she was asleep.
·11-9 Thursday off yet again-slept late and wasted afternoon. Went over to Crystals landlords to watch ER. Once again Crystal was amazed at my special touch with animals. She mentioned that whenyour in love with somebody you miss
them.
WE went back to her apartment,,s he discussed clothes, she showed a cookbook, she took a shower. She put on
a nightgown.
Somehow i ended up sleeping over, and we made love yet again. Once again it was different ,this time i took
for ever to come, partly cos i wasnt that hard, partly cos i didnt want to stop she was saying such things aboutme,
how much she loved me, she called me her true love, that i was the best lover she ever had, it was almost too much, oh i loved being with her,
her lips and mouth and hair looked so beautiful in the dark.
She then held me and tried to get me to relax. I couldt for some reason-she turns me on so much. I slept over
but had to get up early to go to work.
11-10 worked 930 to 6, donna malo'slast day. Saw Crystal at work, I went to get groceries and wasted time on
the computer after work, spoke with Crystal on phone.
·11-11 gave Crystal flowers (had them delivered) slept over at Crystal's . Apprently the cat was a problem whilst
I slept over.
11-12 off -Visited jim, did asso iate night with Crystal (she helped me buy clothes),went to dinsner, Crystal had problem wtih animals. Left in a slight problem, Crystal called.
11-13 Worked, Crystal stopped by work but didnt come over to talk to me cos she brought the dog,
Saw Crystal after her shift went out to Pizzeria Uno. Watched two videos-our 8mm and 3 musketeers, I left around
2pm for the second night in row we didnt make out (she's slightly more iritatable cos of her period, and cos of the
diabetes problems)
·11-14 Tuesday spent much of day with Crystal , met her mom
11-15 Wednedday worked night shift vistied with Crystal for a hour and half
·11-16Thursday-Mr Durant came over , didnt visit us , Worked 1030-7 ,,,, , went to lunch with her at jcp
viisteed crystal, we made love? it was very sweet , she (her whole body felt so good under me, i almost cried.
She was upset cos they told they were not going to give her a promised bonus at her
job, and cos she had a doctor's appt about problems with her diabetes.
·11-17 friday, worked Went out to dinner, Went over to Crystal's played emperor of china
·11-18 Saturday Worked , she made me dinner. Went over to crystal's played monolpoly, stayed over made love, i was hard quickly, so i t kind of ended too soon.
11-19 sunday worked 1030 to 6 didnt see crystal. (Crystal got fired from her job)
11-21 mon worked ,saw crystal
11-22 tueworked left for new jersey
11-23 wed arrived in va had dinner at bess's
11-23 thuthanksgiving
11-24 fri had lunhc with mary, and jim.was going to leave at 4 but didnt
11-25 sat drove from va to nj, had long talk with missy.
11-26sun-off drove home from new jesrsey, brougth crystal a flowr and a dolphin, stayed overnight at crystals it was vry tender
and yet electric.
11-27 mon worked nottoo enthusiastically was sick went home early
11-28 tue
wed 11-29-off
thursday 11-30

1-2 12-1 Friday Got car sticker
12-2 Saturday,went to dinner with jim stayed over at Crystal's Got into a discussion, then things went ok, but still was impotent
12-3 Sunday worked 11-6 . Did a couple of things with Crystal, had pizza with her ,ended up staying over,
it didnt go well-we got into another discussion this was the first time that i didnt feel like touching
crystal or staring into her eyes.
12-34 Monday morning Came home from Crystal's to find patty cleaning up my bath.
Monday evening -i was late to work today again cos i didnt realize what time i was scheduled.
12-5 tues
12-6 wed
12-7 thu
12-8 fri
12-8 friday
somewhere here crystal broke up with me, but quickly reversed things it was a hard experei ce.
12-9 Weird saturday- spent the morning doing errands ,but what did i really accomplish.
12-11 Monday
12-12 Bush Vs Gore election saga ended with Surpreme Court ruling
12-13 Wednesday -Here at home slightly wasting away....Thoughts of playing with danny and a couple
of writerly ideas emerged in my mind, but were already forgeotten. to think to use this brain seems to
be an unlikely occurence.
12-23 Saturday not writng much here!
12-27wed doctors appt went over to mikie's saw Mary and kids -slept over at crystal's/
12-28
12-30 Worked 4-10, went over to crystal's watched LITTLE WOMAN
12-31New years eve-feel lousy, CRystal was upset over new years -i am sick and dont feel like going over there
or too Falmouth-I dont feel like do anything that requires effort. She inivited her sisters and ,mom over.January 2001
1-1 went to hynanis with crystal
1-3 called in sick...=-played risk with crysta;l
1-3
1-8 appointment for tests
1-9 spoke with cherilyn, her move was totally pointless, it made me feel like a was a fool. i was
a fool.
Sunday January 14 went over to meet jim in burliington. met cyrstal at her house-it went badly
tuesday came over to crystals' fro her birthday-she was mad i was late -which put a damper on the evening,
January 18 thursday came into to work to find that JCP -kingston will be closing june 30. Had
long stressful conversation with Crystal about the impact onm us. we may move together, but
there was some tesnion.
january 19 went out with crystal to a chinese restuarant
friday catalogs came in
Saturday january 20- the president is inaguarated. I am off today-i slept ok
sunday jan 21 worked it didnt seem like a sunday cos i worked just with kathy-put up catalogs
monday jan 20 workjed in house, crystal came by and helped -d me organize went out to friednlys
tuesday , jan 23 hung ou with crystal in a power outage, drove her around got upset with her-she said never
yell at me , which was interesting-i dont have a problem with the ideaof not yelling.
Wed january 24 -here off for the third time in six days. The cat keeps bothering me. went to libary
and paid my phone, car insurance bill\.
Barbara thomas called at some point in here(astirer the closing announcment
Sunday ,Jan 29 went over to jimmy's and then out to a restaurant to celebrate my birthday.
Monday -Jan 30 spent morning and afeternnon with Jim, washed my car, went over to crystals,
her mom came over so i couldnt stay late.
Tuesday night, Jan 30-feeling underweather spent evening with Crystal and then slept over.
Wednedday jan 31

FEBRUARY
2-1thursday dropped crystal car off went over to crystal house afteward
Friday ,feb 2-Crystal had a bad day-i dont why i dont enjoy writing any more in the jounranl,
she Lost job at VNA, repair on car will cost 500. my keys got locked out of car. got my haircut
2-3saturday went into boston with Crystal to quincy markert , went to durgin park..
2-4sunday jcp enney party crystal got drunk
2-5 monday- off went to doctor, then to marion, fairhaven and north dartmouth, then back to crystal and home.
2-6 tuesday worked
27wed -went over to jim's to help him with the disposal of his car.
2-8thurs worked went over to crystal
2-9 -Went up
2-10 Saturday worked with kathy.
sunday febuary 11 off today-it is cold outside. went for walk missed church again In a cyncial mood fighting with cat for the keyboard. Took trash to dump.
2-14 went to phantom of opera, henrietta's table ,got crystal parts.
2-16 worked -took Crystal in for repair but had problems with parts.
2-21 went over to cape cod to see crystal mothers.
2-22- slept over at crystal she was sick
2-23 friday had a really irritable day,
2-25 off marge'a party did oil change

March
3-11 (Sat(It's 6 15 am,March 10th. i am to lazy to write in this so i have written little in the log in two weeks
There is snow on the ground. It's jhard to write sometimes, I feel souless, heartless,
neagative and i dont believe in ayhing. IT's hard to make me care.
I woke up after a "paint the house dream " . I feel fat. I tnhought avbout Dave Benway,
and KAthy Duart, and what happens to relationships (friendships) when separtions occu..r.
3-12 sunday worked spent evening with crystal
3-13 Monday went to new hampshire
3-14 Tuesday in new hampshire Did Snowmobiling, it was fun.
3-15 Wedneday worked
3-16 worked went over to crstaal she ended up in emergencey room
3-17 worked
3-18 worked went over to crystal's
3-19 Sunday afternoon-morning started so-so got irritated at crystal.
3- Got into argument with crystal
Saturday
3-25 Sunday writing nothing here at home it's vaguely springish
3-27MAry settleed on her new house
3-28 or thereabouts george annouceed he is raising rent rent consider moving out.

APRIL
April 1 liquidation started at JCP
April 2 pam and Greg hinkel had their baby.
april 4 off hung out with Crystak
April 5 worked 1-930
april 8 visited with Jim in harvard square. Went to Greenhouse.
April 9th went over to Crystal's Mom house for her birthday. Have been anxious and stressed and
got into to a conversation with crystal about that, typical of that was I had bad dream about Mr. Rhoads.
April 10, 2000 Worked 1-930. Really looks like spring for once.
April 14, 2001 Worked at JCp- it was busy. Got into bad argument with customer& cathy (mo Izzl isssue). Last day of salon
at Kingston. went to braintree with crystal
April 15, 2001 WEnt over to Mikie's for Easter. Took Crystal along.
4-18 Set up zip drive.
April 19 Crystal's first day in hanover.
April 20 Karen caneli esigned in hanover.
4-28 saturday-slower at jcp the past week in catylog. Watched magnolia.
4-29 went out to dinner.with crystal at carmelia's
may 1 discovered that kathy is quitting ,pondering catalog job at hanover,
May 4 went to doctor
may 5 went to First knigh t with crystal
may 6 went to see jim, went to garden.
May 7 watched two movies with crysal
May 8 wEnt to Hyannis with Crystal.
MAY 9 WORKED DINNER WITH CRSTAL WALK,
MAY 10 HEARD THAT DEBBIE BURTON GOT A INTERVIEW TO DO CATALOG JOB
AT HANVOER STORE.
May 13 sunday -went to Ric hard Thompson concert in newburyport with dave benway
may 15 had argument with crystal
May 16 worked with kathy d. Overheard a conversation where i picked out that she didnt want me to become
catalgo supervisor. Worked in shoes, worked in home... had discussion about marriage
with crystal, after going to friendldlys
5-17 Spoke with Mia.worked day Saw Jim. had another discussion with crystal about marriage.
5-18 worked 1-9 had a walk with crystal that didnt go to well-another argument a bad one
where i told her i wasnt ready to say once for all that we were going to get married.
5-19 worked daytime spend evening at home.. Crystal perhaps bothered by our conversation was distant.
but i stayed over at her house.
5-20 worked sunday with christine
5-21 arguement with crystal came to a head-
5-24 Interview with Mia, a sobering , worked 1-9, frustating, futile experien ce, visited beach, went to bickfords
argiued with george viglas.
5-25 morning lathargic, frustated, depressed. its hard to write ,went with crystal, to get money from bank,
and had trobule with that ,went to burger king and had to go back to get cini-mini.
Friday-spoke again with Mia.

 

2001

8
January 2001

12-31New years eve-feel lousy, CRystal was upset over new years -i am sick and dont feel like going over there
or too Falmouth-I dont feel like do anything that requires effort. She inivited her sisters and ,mom over.January 2001
1-1 went to hynanis with crystal
1-3 called in sick...=-played risk with crysta;l
1-3
1-8 appointment for tests
1-9 spoke with cherilyn (last time) her move was totally pointless, it made me feel like a was a fool. i was
a fool.
1-11 worked 130 to 9-played risk with crystal
Sunday January 14 went over to meet jim in burliington. met cyrstal at her house-it went badly
tuesday came over to crystals' fro her birthday-she was mad i was late -which put a damper on the evening,
January 18 thursday came into to work to find that JCP -kingston will be closing june 30. Had
long stressful conversation with Crystal about the impact onm us. we may move together, but
there was some tesnion.
january 19 went out with crystal to a chinese restuarant
friday catalogs came in
Saturday january 20- the president is inaguarated. I am off today-i slept ok
sunday jan 21 worked it didnt seem like a sunday cos i worked just with kathy-put up catalogs
monday jan 20 workjed in house, crystal came by and helped -d me organize went out to friednlys
tuesday , jan 23 hung ou with crystal in a power outage, drove her around got upset with her-she said never
yell at me , which was interesting-i dont have a problem with the ideaof not yelling.
Wed january 24 -here off for the third time in six days. The cat keeps bothering me. went to libary
and paid my phone, car insurance bill\.
Barbara thomas called at some point in here(astirer the closing announcment
Sunday ,Jan 29 went over to jimmy's and then out to a restaurant to celebrate my birthday.
Monday -Jan 30 spent morning and afeternnon with Jim, washed my car, went over to crystals,
her mom came over so i couldnt stay late.
Tuesday night, Jan 30-feeling underweather spent evening with Crystal and then slept over.
Wednedday jan 31

FEBRUARY
2-1thursday dropped crystal car off went over to crystal house afteward
Friday ,feb 2-Crystal had a bad day-i dont why i dont enjoy writing any more in the jounranl,
she Lost job at VNA, repair on car will cost 500. my keys got locked out of car. got my haircut
2-3saturday went into boston with Crystal to quincy markert , went to durgin park..
2-4sunday jcp enney party crystal got drunk
2-5 monday- off went to doctor, then to marion, fairhaven and north dartmouth, then back to crystal and home.
2-6 tuesday worked
27wed -went over to jim's to help him with the disposal of his car.
2-8thurs worked went over to crystal
2-9 -Went up
2-10 Saturday worked with kathy.
sunday febuary 11 off today-it is cold outside. went for walk missed church again In a cyncial mood fighting with cat for the keyboard. Took trash to dump.
2-14 went to phantom of opera, henrietta's table ,got crystal parts.
2-16 worked -took Crystal in for repair but had problems with parts.
2-21 went over to cape cod to see crystal mothers.
2-22- slept over at crystal she was sick
2-23 friday had a really irritable day,
2-25 off marge'a party did oil change

March
3-11 (Sat(It's 6 15 am,March 10th. i am to lazy to write in this so i have written little in the log in two weeks
There is snow on the ground. It's jhard to write sometimes, I feel souless, heartless,
neagative and i dont believe in ayhing. IT's hard to make me care.
I woke up after a "paint the house dream " . I feel fat. I tnhought avbout Dave Benway,
and KAthy Duart, and what happens to relationships (friendships) when separtions occu..r.
3-12 sunday worked spent evening with crystal
3-13 Monday went to new hampshire
3-14 Tuesday in new hampshire Did Snowmobiling, it was fun.
3-15 Wedneday worked
3-16 worked went over to crstaal she ended up in emergencey room
3-17 worked
3-18 worked went over to crystal's
3-19 Sunday afternoon-morning started so-so got irritated at crystal.
3- Got into argument with crystal
Saturday
3-25 Sunday writing nothing here at home it's vaguely springish
3-27MAry settleed on her new house
3-28 or thereabouts george annouceed he is raising rent rent consider moving out.

 

 

APRIL
April 1 liquidation started at JCP
April 2 pam and Greg hinkel had their baby.
april 4 off hung out with Crystak
April 5 worked 1-930
april 8 visited with Jim in harvard square. Went to Greenhouse.
April 9th went over to Crystal's Mom house for her birthday. Have been anxious and stressed and
got into to a conversation with crystal about that, typical of that was I had bad dream about Mr. Rhoads.
April 10, 2000 Worked 1-930. Really looks like spring for once.
April 14, 2001 Worked at JCp- it was busy. Got into bad argument with customer& cathy (mo Izzl isssue). Last day of salon
at Kingston. went to braintree with crystal
April 15, 2001 WEnt over to Mikie's for Easter. Took Crystal along.
4-18 Set up zip drive.
April 19 Crystal's first day in hanover.
April 20 Karen caneli esigned in hanover.
4-28 saturday-slower at jcp the past week in catylog. Watched magnolia.
4-29 went out to dinner.with crystal at carmelia's

4-30 Spent day with crystal , went to roger williams zoo, fire and ice, imax theatre.

 

May 1 discovered that kathy is quitting ,pondering catalog job at hanover,
May 4 went to doctor
May 5 went to First knigh t with crystal
May 6 went to see jim, went to garden.
May 7 watched two movies with crysal
May 8 Went to Hyannis with Crystal.
MAY 9 WORKED DINNER WITH CRSTAL WALK,
MAY 10 HEARD THAT DEBBIE BURTON GOT A INTERVIEW TO DO CATALOG JOB
AT HANVOER STORE.
May 11 worked -uneventful day.

May 12 Saturday morning It;s getting hot. I was about to say that i feel comfortable enought
to write... But maybe it's too hot. Just played Nanosaur. I Got the five eggs for the first time
in about 18 minutes. It was weird cos i never got more than 2 or 3 eggs prior to that. The game
is considerably shorter than bugdom.

May 13 sunday -went to Ric hard Thompson concert in Newburyport with dave benway
may 15 had argument with crystal
May 16 worked with kathy d. Overheard a conversation where I picked out that she didnt want me to become
catalgo supervisor. Worked in shoes, worked in home... had discussion about marriage
with crystal, after going to Friendlys
5-17 Spoke with Miaon phone. Worked day Saw Jim. had another discussion with crystal about marriage.
5-18 worked 1-9 had a walk with crystal that didnt go to well-another argument a bad one
where i told her i wasnt ready to say once for all that we were going to get married.
5-19 worked daytime spend evening at home.. Crystal perhaps bothered by our conversation was distant.
but i stayed over at her house.
5-20 worked sunday with christine
5-21 arguement with crystal came to a head- had to return libary books I gave her a card aying simply-"I love You" Met her while walking towards the horses, but it took a while for us to make up.
5-24 Interview with Mia, a sobering , Kathy and or Mr. Rhoads put in a bad word for me. I spoke with Kathy briefly about-but she wasn't going to admit she that she would not support me. worked 1-9, frustating, futile experien ce, visited beach, went to bickfords argiued with george viglas.
5-25 morning lathargic, frustated, depressed. its hard to write ,went with crystal, to get money from bank,
and had trobule with that ,went to burger king and had to go back to get cini-mini.
Saw diane garber, sylvia macguire, Diane thompson ,Tarnya, sasha, and Crystal at JCP hanover,

 

June 2001
6-1 saw pearl harbor
WellI wrote something for june but it dissapeared here on Monday the last day of a futile 4 days off
6-5 worked daytime in fairly good mood till kathy d apeared, went out for a ride in the moonlight
wtih Crystal.
June 6 jobfair at JCP
AT some point here I got Crystal's wedding ring, to take advangtage of JCp going out of biz sale...
June 7 worked daytime, went to pearl harbor with Cyrstal, Worked with duart for a few minutes. slept over
June 9 th or ssomething left letter for Kathy got response.,she deniedhsaving said anything
June 13 Republcished ABBA-The Albums on Tripod. com
hared to believe it took a whole year to republish.. the wesite was down for 14 months ....

June 15 Spoke with Mr Rhoads about Mia
June 17 Went to sleep over at Crystal's mom house.
June 19 Found out that Kathy is going to Hanover,

June 19 or thereabouts got into an arguemnt with Crystal. Applied at Home depot.
, This week sawa Beauty and The beast Dangerous Beauty,
6-20 etc. Saw Four weddings & A funeral, and
6-26 A miserable time, Crystal is not doing well, and I feel like i have a lot to do ,and dont seem to
be getting much of it done. She had us basically do nothing the better part of the evinging.
6-27went to Falmouth went swiim ming with Crystal at chappiquat beach , A great swim, metmom.
Bob Hurley went into the hospital.
6-28 thursday worked second to last day at JCP. Gave Mr. Rhoads a party -a watch. ice cream. kathy wrote him
a poem. Last day workied with Donna, Christine. (will I see Christine again. Found out problem with severence
pay probably will not be corrected which was incredibly frustating., had a relatively good evening wi th Crystal, till
she yelled at me while we were making out-which just pissed me off, especially considering how much I have hadto
put up with from her the past week . She proceeded to go to sleeep, in acually a preety good mood, but Iwas seething. , i was incredibly moody working with Julie.
6-30 Last day at JCP store closed at 500 did something with Crystal -i fog=rget what.

July 2001
Sunday7-1 -party with Dave Benway.
Monday7-2 went to the Cape-to drop off cards, went to Marconi beach, and went to Drive -in to see Artificial Intelligence.
Tuesday 7-3 Found out from Crystal that she is pregnant (probably since June 16). Of course,I am taken aback,becuase she used birth control.-thiough not a very effective mehto,. Have ve to make the best of the sitituation. My chief concern is the social fallout , the money issues,finally the lack of freedoom. I really dont know how I going to make enough money to deal with thi, and with the prior debt. But we had talked about having childden and
July 4 Crystal working, metJ immy for Independence Day, but we did not go to fireworks. .
July 5 Still out of work, got ice cream cone at gellars for first time.
July 6 Friday Found out that i did write a bad check, it turned out to be the dentist-oh boy. Geez, i fee;l like
i have to change my whole financial plan. Had two calls since i started this.
Busy time not writing enough here...
Sunday july 10 aprrox went to scussest beach -bad argument with Crystal (our worst argument ever)
Monday picked up gown and ring....
Tuesday appt at Brigham and Woman told Spillanes we were getting engaged and that crystal was expecting.
July 12 Formally gave Crystal her ring

 

 

July 15/16 went to NH alone. Climbed Mt. Webster on 15th(out a little late on that one, Took car up M. Washington and did some climbing
around My. Wasington. called Benting at bank. Found at UPS job was filled.

July 17 Crystal had another appointment., Woke up with dream about Linda Fink=-or whatever passes for Linda
Fink in a dream. I think the last time I saw her was 1990. She no longer recognized me, indeed not since college,
had she rccognized me. The dream had some sort of Jcpenney componnent (jcpenney has become part of my dream
reperertorie, some sort of house, and then finally a different segment in a plane) The dream was similiar to the sort
of dreams I have had about LAR, a sort of odd combo of wanting/not having with having. It made me realize that
after Crystal & LAR that Linda may have been the person who I wanted the most. I wondered who number 4 was-probably have to say Heather meyer. Got get ready- I hate mornings.

7-18 Susan at addecco called me and offered the UPS jobb again-I was like not awake enough to think about augh-and
said no.
7-21 Went out with Crystal, Dave, Sasha and Jim to Harvard Square.
7-23 had argument with crystal -the first bad one since scusset
7-24 went to brigham and womans -ultraound baby ok
7-2 5 Started temp assigment at Harte-Hanks in Bridgewater.
7--27 Visited with Jim in Framingham. Went to Kelly's restuatant
7-28 Tried to alter website and ended up messing it up. Crystal's cat went crazy again.
7-29 Party at Linda Gangi's
7-31Temp orary assignment with ADDECCO at Harte Hanks seemed to have ended today.
Reset p website as http://felpin80.tripod.com/ata/
Received Severence Check it had not been corrected ! I got a gradn total of 421 dollars after taxes.

 

AUGUST 2001

Friday, Aug 3 worked Hart Hanks.
Saturday, August 4 worked short shift at hart-Hanks Visited with Jim and Joe.
Sunday,
August 5. Listening to Stevie Nicks, It's noon on Saturday. Are no t I supposed to write.
8=-9wednesday saw planet of the Apes with crystal
8-10-Thursday got off eredj ob by Plymouth Savings.
8-12-Saturday printed rest of europa cleaned.
8-16 left with Crystal for virginina stayed in grimy econo lodge in burlington.
8-17 Visited gene and bessie

8-18 gene's formal 8oth b-day party. got him photo display thing.
8-20 to 8-24 trained at plymouth savings in middleboro. opened new savings acct.

SEPEMBER 2001

9-11 NYC World Trade Center destroyed, Pentagon attacked. In sandwich branch whenit happened.
9-14 Wedding rehearsel dinner.
9+15 Get married at bente Boyers house in front of 60 to 70 guests in Kingston, Massachusetts.
9+15, 9+16, 9+17 +On honeymoon in Fitchburg and Rindge NH.
9-18 saw mamma mia in boston

OCTOBER 2001
10-6 through 10-8 Went to Maryland to drop off cat.

10-20 Moved computer to 143 Sandwich Rd.
OCTOBER 2001
10-1 and onward worked in Cotuit branch of Plymouth Savings most of month.
People there have been nice.
10-6 through 10-8 Went to Maryland to drop off cat. Saw Mary's new house. Saw David Sultan the last time...
10-15 Crystal and I celebrate are first month annniversaey by seeing HEARTS IN ATLANTIS at INDEPENDENCE MAll.
10 12 through 10-16 bad bit of time at Cotuit branch.
10-18 supposedky MAMMA MIA pemeired on Broadway..
10-20 Moved computer to 143 Sandwich Rd.
10-22 to 10-26 worked in Mashpee.
10-27 Saturday Got new Queensize bed.. bed.... Delivered to 143 Sandwich rd
10-28 Sunday- rented moving truck Moved furniture and half of boxes.

10-29 Mon Finished moving.,,, Had to leave some stufff in basement.
10-30 Tues Rested a little and brought things in from garage. Set up phonme at 143 Sandwich Rd....
10-31- wed- Halloween Worked at Cotuit

November 2001
11-1 Thurs Worked in Cotuit over again for the first time in two weeks.
11-4 Sunday Hooked up to America On-Line.
11-5 Monday Worked in Cotuit, Mondays are tiring there.
11-11 Went out for Jim's b-dy at Marriot in Newton.
11-18 Saw K-PAX,,,
11-12 Vet's Day -Visited Apartment in Wood's Hole.
11-19 Visited another two houses in Falmouth. One on AMVETS is promising.
11-22 Thanksgivig at Crystals' moms house
11-24 Both Crystal ad I o ff for her b-day. Not an overly go od day-went to baby store, went to 99 restaurant.
Got Crystal a balloon , two videos and a CD.

December 2001

-1 Mary's b day
12-5 Worked in Marion branch...
12-7(?) signed lease on Amvets
12-17 Went to crytal's mom to visit with her Uncle John's family.
12 sometin g saw Harry Pottter...
went to crysta's baby appt. Baby is in 97 % size wise.
12-22 been working in Wareham branch a lot. have not beeen in Christmas spirit Very depressed today.

 

12-24 spent christnas eve at mikie's rece gifts.
12-25 spent christmas at crystal's house
12-27 Thursday Crystal got into accident, her audi totaled, she in hosptial fo 24 hours
12-28 Friday- left hosp.,, dealth with car.
12-29 Saturday got car inpected. vistited with MAry's family, aunt anna, tommy & ann, and mary winn.
12-30 worked on house.

 

JANUARY 2002
1-1 Moved to 34 Amvets
1-15 picked up mazda protege.
1-21 martin king day off got maxada inspected
1-24 went into Boston with Crystal for doctor's appt/
1-27 went to lunch with with the harvard Square club.
1-28 went to PSB r4th quarter meeting in raynham.

February 2002
2-4 worked in Falmouth branch again ended up 70 dollars over, now I am
170 off in that branch. he 100 dollars was found later.
2-10 Trucked stuff over from Jim's house,
2-11 Crystal's baby shower, bought couch.
2-10crystal went to hospital.
2-14 Crystal worked Valentine's Day. Sent her flowers got her Lord of the Rings and Creed CD. Visited her mother.
2-16 Last day in Mashpee. Crystal predicts baby to come by Monday the 25th.
2-18 Went to Boston to hosptal to check on baby.
2-19 off spent some time with Crystal, worked in room.

2-26 baby born 5-38pm at falmouth hopital....

March 2002

march 1 friday afternoon injured my left shoulder. Fractured two bones in the shhoulder at Teaticket branch of PSB.
march 2 baby-boy comes home...
marc5th baby goes visits emergency room.
march 7 am baby visits er again and then is admitted to hospt.
march 1o baby came out of hospital sunday morning.
Mondaymarch 11 returned to work.
Saturday went to a movie with Crystl.
Movies we have went to the theatre to see...

Meet the Parents
*Pay It forward
Traffic
*first night
*herarts in atlantis
*K-Pax
*Lord of the Rings
Time Machine
Spiderman

3-16 bizz finally saw baby....

march 17 sunday morn. hmm i was just thinking how it would would it be easier to handwrite this..
Here almost relaxed on a sunday morn.
and now it's afternnon....
During March, MEg moved out of Crystal's mother house,

3-16

sunday easteer went to masss at treeci's church. easter dinner at mikie's
tuesday went to physical therapy. first time...
April 2002

4-7 Crystal has first gall bladder attack...
4-11/12 Crystal has second and third attacks and is admitted to hopst.

4-14 Crystal has operation to remove gall bladder..
4-16 Tuesday Finish taxes.//
4-18 Wednesday go back to work Crystal discharged from hsoptial.
4-23 seemingly reinjured my shoulder
4-26 crystal took baby in for shots and went to doctor who thought she was abusing painkillers.

MAY 2002
MAy 1- s0 Saw doctor Mills x ray ok, 500 short...
May 2- Man came back with money
May 3, 2002 evening -MAry came to visit.
May 4- went to Mashpee Commons with Mary , Crystal and Jason.
5-12 Went out to Hynanis with Crystal and her family for Mother's Day
went to see Spiderman with Crystal...
5-20 Jason sees doctor stills weighs only about 12-lbs 7 ounces
Jason has started laughing and grasping and doing raspberries.
5-23 Crystal starts new job at dellaria salon.
5-24/25 The spillanes came down to Captains quarters
5-26 Went out to Flying Bridge for dinner....
5-31 sick though still going to work.

JUNE 2002

6-6 Jason weighed 13- 2lbs...
6-18 Jason has been using
June 10 so little seemingly going on.- Crystal has been doing some training and so tommorrow
Iam going to watch the baby-- his hands to grasp things now...Jason finallytakes
a majority of his bottles in the larger 6-8 ounce size. Jason is beginning to outgrow his car seat.-he's 27 inches long.
6-21 Jason injures his eye, scratches his cornea, it turns out to be a minor injury-he wears a eye patch for about a day. Clean house-Crystal stays home from work.
6-24 Jason goes into a swimming pool for the first time.
6-25 Jason has his four months shots.
6-27 took jason over to see Crystal at work for the first time.
6-29 Got lawnmower....was going to see Spillanes but they are booked.
6-30 It's 1am Sunday, June 30th just spoke with Jeff, Was looking at some european maps-
felt good about Bergen-it was like a glimpse of heaven there on top of the hill overlooking those
fjords, but felt bad about Holland- i didnt quite do the bike tour i should of there, I thought of
Northern Norway as well, musing about why didnt go further north there in 98-but I was trying to conserve
time and money-and felt i could leave that for some other time. The scotish maps though did make me
annoyed cos i didnt do scotland very efficiently-and i might not go back there,

 

 

July 2002
July 4 Went to Falmouth fire works in Falmouth Heights near Captains Quarters.
July 5 or so -Last physical therapy session.,,
July 7 Visited with Spillanes & jim at spilanne compound....
July 9 Crystal worked first day on new babysitting job.
July 10 Went to Cape Cod LEague baseball game at Fuller Field in falmouth.
took Jason with me,,...
July 13 Crystal worked her last day at Dellaris salon.
July 21 went to Hyannis with Crystal Jim and Missy came down.
Soemwhere it is there waiting to be found or lost my lost hopes or dreams or sent to some space cos i know
July 24 Crystal starts training program...
July 25
Went to barnstable county fair with Jason and Crystal...spent 50 dollars we dont have,,,,,
otherwse it was fun...
July 26-July29 Danielle Zinnack visits
July 28 Visit with Michele Finks, Donna and Christine....
July 29 PSB party at Beachmoor -Have shortage that is recovered...
July 30 Speak with Bessie on phone....

 

ugust 2002
August 3 start working Falmouth brach assingment,

August 4 Jason Baptised at St. patrick
Jack Spillane -Godfather Steph Spillane Godmother KAthy ,Rob, Bizz, meg . Treecie, Mikie, Ji,, joe, missy , debi, also attend...

Ausgust 6 Annual review at work goes ok..
August 11-Huey Lewis concert go with Jim..
August 12 -found out crystal has Bulging or herniated disc.-she has to see a surgeon.
8-17 . party at Jims house-Spillanes galuardis. joe, and us 3 attend...
8-18 galuardis visit here,,
Late August my right wrist bothering me-saw doctor he says Ihave tendonitis.\
8-31 Returned to Teaticket branch for 2 half days.

 

September 2002

9-1 sunday Went to Plymouth-I saw landlord r, Crystal saw Tanya, We both saw Heather ?& bill, saw
Independence Mall.
9-6 Went up to New Hamphsire for wedding
9-7 Attended wedding of Tom Sheehan and Anne Benjamin
9-8 Visited with Mike, and JAck .
9-15 First anniversarty went to boston...
9-15 to 917 had arguments with crystal...
9-29 Walked along maravista-took in kitten temporarily-Crystal did some org in in jason room
OCTOBER 2002
10-3 or threrabouts -Kitty taken to people for cats.
10-7 second annivrsaey of first date with Crystal.

Oct 2002
OCTOBER 2002
10-3 or threrabouts -Kitty taken to people for cats.
10-5 Bought camcorder at Best Buy....
10-7 second annivrsaey of first date with Crystal.
During the ,month jason got a walker and started eating wagon wheels ..
10-14 Went to Cape Cod canal...Jason photos taken at walmart...
10-20 Visited with Mike and Jack at Bobby bynres
10-23 went to middleboro for training , the n to plymouth to drop off a bill..-
Had crystal's mother ovr for tacos.
10-26 spoke with David sultan..
10-31 JAson has started to crawl finally,

NOVEMBER 2002
NOVEMBER 2002
11-3 Crystal went to ER becasue her sugar was over 400 over tegh weekend., Crystal
missed two days of work ...Jason'
11-4 started stint in Mashpee brach-picked up Jason's photographs at walmart
11-14 depressed a little, been raining, crystal has been considiring taking kita , meg's dog.
11-22 we took Meg's dog Kita but are not sure we are too keep it.
11-23 Jim visited. Fishie doesn't seem well . I left his tank stay cloudy too long.
11-23/24 Jason stayed over at debbies house.
11-24 Crsytal has a fairly good birthday . Went to percys' for breakfast-she called into work
11-28 Thanksgiving had at Kathy's house. Baby cranky Crystal worked
3-11 shift.
11-20 Visited Aunt Anna...

DECEMBER 2002
DECEMBER 02

12-6 Had argumetnt with Crystal after her car got hit wellst parked here at Amvets
12-7 appear to have decided to move out to a house on Hudson St....
12-8/9 arguments with landlord Joe Maggi about moving out.
12-11 VACATION DAY OFF FROM WORK.
12-15 I actually saw inside of house on Hudson St.. it's older and spacious,it has those
anoying heating vents. I wasnt thrilled-i felt less thrilled about moving,,
12-19 late in the eveing Crystal takes too many pills.
12-20 Friday Crystal changes hosptial
12-21 Satuday Crystal chagnes hospital-I STAY WITH MIKE 7JACK THUGH THURSDAY.
t12-22-Sunday at hosptial -JACK
12-23 Monday bad day at hospt
12-24 Tuesday Christmas eve-Crystal out for just about 4-5 hours from Hospital.
--8Mikie went balistic on me for compliaining abotu crystal's care.
12-----25 Crystal got out for 10 hours from hopstial.
12-26 thursday crystal gets out of hospital.
12-29 sunday Move from Amvets.

JANUARY 03

In January Jason had started gettting into things a lot more-like crawing over to toilets and then standing up next to11 p the toilet and siticking his hadn in.
1-1 New years at home watching pookie, crystal worked for the first time in a while.
sadly Kita was taken to the pound -meg wasnt taking care of him....
1-2 -3 Yes the day is 1-2-3... Put trash out at Amvets...forgot to move shelf.late again at work,...
1-10 saw donna clar K WITH crystal and a had pizza dinner.
1-12 went to betsy's dinmer.took baby's photo with red cord jumper. MAurice gibb dies and pete townsend possibly caught with child porn.
1-13 Lost my key at work.SAW CATCH ME IF YOU CAN ,ate too mcuh popconr, ONE OF CRYSTAL'S CLIENTS DIES FOR THE FIRST TIME.
1-16 I am forty. My birthday get balloon , tab, card and cupcakes at work. Crystal gets ,me two cards. Jim calls.
1-17 went with crystal to see donna fc, confronted crystal about her lack of use of insulin-crystal is still
suffering from severe depressiion .
1-20 Finally unpacked most of boxes and set up living room....
Played some SIM TOWER>...
1-25 work in teaticket, go candlepin bowling with Json...
1-27 Crystals back is bothering here, been using fire place.

 

 

February 2003
2-1s Another shuttle, the COLUMBIA. the first shuttle to go up orignally disintergrated. -heard about a number of hours after it happened....It was sts-113
the previous disasters occured...Jan 27, 1967, and Jan 28, 1986.. The fifth week of the year a week of the year is not a good one to atemtp space travel....
2-2 sCrystal and i joke about getting married again.
2-3 mFinshed organizing office. Still working in Mashpee. Argued a little more about Crystal getting stuff.
2-4t Psb party at radisson (formerly Sheraton) in PLymouth. Went with Pat, Sandy
and Leslie Marsh in Leslie's car. Sat with Falmouth branch... In my absence , Jason pulled bedside table down.
2-7 Snow storm
2-9 took jason out sleding in a plastic crate...
2-10 snow storm
2-13 Jason has croup cough Crystal missed more work.,
2-14 my sore trhoat came back-Got crystal DVD and bamboo for Valtentine Days'
my shoudler botthing me..
2-16 Sunday Crystal worked a morning shift...I went to church, drove through woods hole, cleaned house, cyrstal in a trough partly cos she was not taking her pills.....
2-18 and 2-19 miss work cos of horible sore throat -go to Fitzpatcik for it,,,
2-22 Worked in falmouth---with bob and carol no ted,
DAY OF JASON's ist birthday PARty-
Crystals mother, rob and Bizz coudnt come...
Mom to mikie, Mikie to me, Me to Steph, Steph to Jason, Jason to STeph jr.
2-23 sunday morning -trying to relax ,be creative, but it's hard to do...So we went to independence mall . Crystal cut my hair....
2-26 Jason actual first birthday he, crystal and crystal's monm go out to hynanis
2-27 restore internet temporarily spend inoridnate amount of time workingon my site.


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March 2003
23-3 Cassidy Jade Visits
3-9 Go to Zooquarium
3-10 go home early from work-deal with cellphone , and crystal's car.
3-15 Heard a new Fleetwood Mac song called "peacekeeper"
3-16 Dad would be 92 today. Good weather...Sunny, warm and no snow on ground. Jason has had some mysterious diariah , crystal has had trouble breathing.well something like that.. took jason for walk on the heights,
3-23 Ryan came by
3-28 (friday) or thereabouts-here from Uncle Joe that Uncle Jim had died. but he died two months before...
3-30- Have arguement about Meg using car...
3-31 another snowstorm...

April 2003
Early April -Jason begins to stand on his own.
4-6 Jason falls off his walker
4-7 Another snowstorm- i am sick call in to work
4-8 tuesday diagnosed with strep throat by Dr, Fitzpatrick,by nightime my throat is really becoming uncomfortable....
4-9 Big statue in Bagdad center taking down by Bagdaders and Us forces-the day before another attack at "leadership targets" third day of my sickout Kathy's b-day dont do anyting. Crystal's make her and then Miki'es' scrap books....
4-10 return to work .
4-16 Meeting in middleboro
4-18 Crystal jason and I go to lunch together,...Crystal gets me Fleetwood Mac Cd.-
4-19 work in middleboro.=-my car continues to have problem starting. Visit Kathy with Jason.
4-20 Easter at Mike and jack's . Joe, Mt, Steph, treeci, myself, Crystal, and Jason there
Bring mikei's scrapbook, Cd's for Jim and treeci, Missy's photo. flower for Mike.Cookies
4-23month and week going by quickly My car having trouble, I am still sick.
doing two training this week...depressed
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May 2003
May 6 (approx) Jason begins walking..Though he does it only fronm time to time-usually when it is the most efficient way to get from place to place.
May 9th to the -11th Visited Maryland with Jim
May 10 Meg Galuardi's first communion. See Eugene,an Mike.
May 11 see Pat Fagan, return to MAss
May 12 Tired,Crystal , Jason adn I visited Walmart. Crystl called in sick cos Jason is not feeling well....Having problems with my Imac mouse.
May 14 Crystal takes test for MAth reguirement for College and remarkably passes it.
May 16 Attend Romeo and Juliet at Boston ballet at Wang Center.
May 18 Go to Fairfield CT for Steph's College Graduation. Bess, Gene, Steph, Bryan, Crystal,Jason,JimSB,Missy, treeci, Mike, JAck and Myself attend dinner. ..
Crystal got Steph a music box. .
May 22-23 Female Golfer competes at a PGA tour event but fails to make the cut for Saturday play.....
May 24 Jason Walks large distances for first time around 8pm .Saturday already-spent week working in Falmouth. satruday included...jason,Crystal and I went to Wareham Walmart today. Rainy memorail day weekend... spillanes & caseys came down today....
Spilanne and Caseys visit 24 through 28th...
May 29 Thursday had to call because Jason is sick....It
May31 Went to Woods Hole Oceanagrpahic Drove to lighthouse...

JUNE 2003

June 1- Sunday-Rainy all day Home with Jason....

June 3 -30th anniversary of Mom's death....
June 5--Yup June 5th -Short 40 dollars -no bonus this month...
june 10-Computer keyboard destroyed by jason
june 28-comp. not fixed yet today rented gas lawn mower
June 20 Meg's birthday-Crystal and I went to the newly reopened Mcdonalds and waited in line for a half hour..


July 2003 was a miserable month..
7-2 appt in boston about crystal operation. At some point in June or Julyu Meg Jackson got assaulted by her boyfriend...
7-4 went to fireworks in falmouth-MARY's FAMILY VISITS FOR WEDDING
7-5 went to spillanes to visitmary,jack,jd,meg,jim,treeci,missy,joe
Jason was cranky, had a almost nice ten minute interval with meg and JD
7-8 or therabouts -Washing machine breaks down, and soapdish falls off bathtile...
7-10 Learn that Reggie Oden may be going to MAshpee branch to replace me...
7-13 Mowed lawn- bought new keyboard...Went to Nobska Lighthouse with Jason taped the visit on video., bought new keyboard...
7-15 Serious problem AT WORK-at work THE 15th is always busy-anyway....Reggie will be going to Mashpee. august 4 HmmmCrystal is out with her mother-I biked to Shaws......thinkingabout how at the convenience store i used to go to other stores ,but for no extra compensation.
7-16 Horrible day at work-they didnt find my variance till 2pm
7-18 short again-though it was only ten dollars.. Jason gets first haircut
7-19 a rare Saturday off----went to Barnstable county fair..Probably the best time all month////
7-24 Went to boston for Crystals Stomach-stapeling support group-but apparently itwas scheduled for six oclcok, we thought it was seven oclock.....So we we visited at Spillanes where crystal told them about her surgury.
7-25 last day at mashpee they gave me a tie, and cake....
7-27 party at anunt anna's house all her local relatives + Mike, missy,treecit, jimmy.myself and jason
7-29 toyota corolla rearended on sagamore rotary-walk to beach wth family.


AUGUST 2003 a unpleasent month as well..
8-2 Worked in Raynham. Crystal been having eye problems ,did seemingly litttle,went to libray, stop and shjop....

8-3 (sunday) off of course, irritatable much of the day,.. Went to lighthouse, Stop and Shop twice,, mowed a little of the back lawn,,,
8-4 Worked in East Wareham, a horrible unpleasent working day...This was my fifth branch in six working days. I never liked working in East Wareham but this was the worst day I can recall having. at PSB....that didn't actually involve an offage.
8-5 A little better, since I was not on the driveup, Crystal had a bad day...
Bizz's birthday- the party is tommorow. Found out that MEg Jackson is pregnant...
8-6 Crystal had to leave her client early cos her client may be infectios,.
so now she is officially on vacation....Found out car is currently not considered totaled...
8-8 Crystal buys air conditioner.... Problems with Mildew in Jason's room..
8-9 (Sat)Worked in Falmouth-then started my vacation. Went off to Mashpee to deposit some money, had trouble installing air conditioner....but finally successful... went to 99 but it wasn't that great...
8-10 See Seabiscuit..get ready for sugury....
8-11 Monday) Crystal has gastric bypass surgury at Beth Israel Deaconess Hosp.. it is successful...
.8-12 (tuesday) Crystal get upset. I Go back to Falmouth for night
8-13 Early in morning i do some things around house, and then take Jason back with to Boston. Crystal leaves hospital...in the afternoon
, Go to target afterward...
8-13 to 8-15 Wed,Thurs, Friday night---Stay at mike and Jack's for Crystal recovery.
This time goes relatively ok.
8-16 Saturday- Return back to Falmouth. Crystal has some problems with dumping....
Though that diagnosis turns out to be wrong....
8-17 Sunday-C
8-18 Monday-
8-19 Tuesday early morning... Admitted first to Falmouth hospital er ... During the day we talk with Dr. Jones and the nutirionist..Crystal gets fluids...Crystal attempts minimally to drink fluids orally.She -but by evening time she is vomiting again....By 10pm she is back at Beth Israel Hospiital.....
8-20 Wednesday Spent much of the day in Er. Finally transferred to regular room.
8-21 (Thursday) Swallow test proofs unsuccessful...

 

8-22 (Friday) Talk to Jones he says they found nothing so far-and he says that two of his remaining options are a Cat scan, and reoperation... (he tells us he has a reoperation rate of 5 percent). The lack of answer...is worrisome because Crystal is not eating, and most of what she drinks -One of the worst days of the year...

 

8-23 (Saturday) Early in the morning -Crystal and I are informed by Dr. Neel Sodah that tests have discovered that she had had a bacterial infection.. with the name of Ghiradi (A sort of "mini cockroach" bacteria that lives inside your intestine. or something like that. Crystal finally stops vomiting. Beautiful weather running through early Monday...
8-24 (Sunday) Crystal is released from the hospital around 2:30pm
. We go back to Spillanes house temporarily and then return to Falmouth....Later that evening Kathy visits and takes Jason out to play.

8-25 (monday)I am back at work this time in Teaticket after vacation.
8-27 (wed) Ma watches Jason again. Jason says"more crackah"...--Crystal and I went to Small Claims Court-in Falmouth to deal with the Amevets matter....They kept trying to get us to settle, but Neither I nor Crystal were biting, even when the magistrate suggested we do so....The law is on our side -Joe Maggi offered 800 dollars...Our thousand -200 dollars supposedly for lawnwork...The magistrate tended to lean towards the more powerful litigants. Haircut...
*-29
8-30 OFF THIS SATURDAY//Wasted morning...Go to Debbie 's to pick up gift-for Madison Ryll's first birthday party... Madison kisses Jason.... Felt quesy much of the day....Spoke with Bessie, Virginia Oneill, Mikie, and Uncle Joe on phone....
8-31 did little , spoke with EuGene deribeaux on phone. He has changed jobs.... Saw Lelo and Stitch on video..

AUGUST 2003 a unpleasent month as well..
8-2 Worked in Raynham. Crystal been having eye problems ,did seemingly litttle,went to libray, stop and shjop....

8-3 (sunday) off of course, irritatable much of the day,.. Went to lighthouse, Stop and Shop twice,, mowed a little of the back lawn,,,
8-4 Worked in East Wareham, a horrible unpleasent working day...This was my fifth branch in six working days. I never liked working in East Wareham but this was the worst day I can recall having. at PSB....that didn't actually involve an offage.
8-5 A little better, since I was not on the driveup, Crystal had a bad day...
Bizz's birthday- the party is tommorow. Found out that MEg Jackson is pregnant...
8-6 Crystal had to leave her client early cos her client may be infectios,.
so now she is officially on vacation....Found out car is currently not considered totaled...
8-8 Crystal buys air conditioner.... Problems with Mildew in Jason's room..
8-9 (Sat)Worked in Falmouth-then started my vacation. Went off to Mashpee to deposit some money, had trouble installing air conditioner....but finally successful... went to 99 but it wasn't that great...
8-10 See Seabiscuit..get ready for sugury....
8-11 Monday) Crystal has gastric bypass surgury at Beth Israel Deaconess Hosp.. it is successful...
.8-12 (tuesday) Crystal get upset. I Go back to Falmouth for night
8-13 Early in morning i do some things around house, and then take Jason back with to Boston. Crystal leaves hospital...in the afternoon
, Go to target afterward...
8-13 to 8-15 Wed,Thurs, Friday night---Stay at mike and Jack's for Crystal recovery.
This time goes relatively ok.
8-16 Saturday- Return back to Falmouth. Crystal has some problems with dumping....
Though that diagnosis turns out to be wrong....
8-17 Sunday-C
8-18 Monday-
8-19 Tuesday early morning... Admitted first to Falmouth hospital er ... During the day we talk with Dr. Jones and the nutirionist..Crystal gets fluids...Crystal attempts minimally to drink fluids orally.She -but by evening time she is vomiting again....By 10pm she is back at Beth Israel Hospiital.....
8-20 Wednesday Spent much of the day in Er. Finally transferred to regular room.
8-21 (Thursday) Swallow test proofs unsuccessful...
8-22 (Friday) Talk to Jones he says they found nothing so far-and he says that two of his remaining options are a Cat scan, and reoperation... (he tells us he has a reoperation rate of 5 percent). The lack of answer...is worrisome because Crystal is not eating, and most of what she drinks -
8-23 (Saturday) Early in the morning -Crystal and I are informed by Dr. Neel Sodah that tests have discovered that she had had a bacterial infection.. with the name of Ghiradi (A sort of "mini cockroach" bacteria that lives inside your intestine. or something like that. Crystal finally stops vomiting. Beautiful weather running through early Monday...
8-24 (Sunday) Crystal is released from the hospital around 2:30pm
. We go back to Spillanes house temporarily and then return to Falmouth....Later that evening Kathy visits and takes Jason out to play.

8-25 (monday)I am back at work this time in Teaticket after vacation.
8-27 (wed) Ma watches Jason again. Jason says"more crackah"...--Crystal and I went to Small Claims Court-in Falmouth to deal with the Amevets matter....They kept trying to get us to settle, but Neither I nor Crystal were biting, even when the magistrate suggested we do so....The law is on our side -Joe Maggi offered 800 dollars...Our thousand -200 dollars supposedly for lawnwork...The magistrate tended to lean towards the more powerful litigants. Haircut...
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8-30 OFF THIS SATURDAY//Wasted morning...Go to Debbie 's to pick up gift-for Madison Ryll's first birthday party... Madison kisses Jason.... Felt quesy much of the day....Spoke with Bessie, Virginia Oneill, Mikie, and Uncle Joe on phone....
8-31 did little , spoke with EuGene deribeaux on phone. He has changed jobs.... Saw Lelo and Stitch on video..

SEPTEMBER 2003

In Septmeber Jason began to talk a lot more -using phrases and imitating words that you asked him to repeat...Find dead crow in yard ,that probably died from West Nile virus ....

LABOR DAY Started the early morning with bad argument with Crystal.. Set up olod compuiter.. Thus both of usdidi not sleep well. Crystal slept much of the day-and I was lathargic.. Saw Babe in video,JAson watched much of movie...
Crystal and Jason are sick.. Aside from the movies,, this was an unpleasent holiday weekend.,,,

9-4 Crystal starts fall semester. Her cell phone dies, and the protege engine warning light has come on inxplicably... Starting to get sick-not enjoying working in Kingston....
9-7 Crystal get her haircut, some highlights done....Visited with Spillanes for Steph's birthday. Went to Aegan Restaurant.

9-8 working in kingston this week....Went walking along Falmouth Heights with JAson. Kathy has a room.

9-13 Saturday...went to jim caroll's house for Michaels party. Spoke with MAry G.
9-14 did lawn-house cleaning ,bike ride.
9-15 Our 2nd anniversary...I got Crystal a small blue mirror. Had an argument with Crystal about internet.
9-18 Crystal returned to work-worked with Doris. Crystal receives another "A" grade on test.
9-19 Spoke with Jeff Hinners and Mary G.
9-20 Worked in Mashpee on a Saturday. Crystal buys lawn mirror from the annoying kid. Kathy's car dies. Crystal works with Mrs. poole for the first time.
9-21 a so-so Sunday . Both Crystal and i were off so we thought to do something, but neither us had the full enthusiasm for the idea, so we napped in the afternnoon, and went to Chapaqoit beach in the late afternoon to catch th sunset. Went over to
Kathy's house afterwards for dinner....

9-27 or so -Kathy buys a new car
9-29 take corolla in/crystal has not very good conversation with gail starr, and i am short 50 dollars in mashpee.

SEPTEMBER 2003

In SEPTEMBERJason began to talk a lot more -using phrases and imitating words that you asked him to repeat...Find dead crow in yard ,that probably died from West Nile virus ....

LABOR DAY Started the early morning with bad argument with Crystal.. Set up olod compuiter.. Thus both of usdidi not sleep well. Crystal slept much of the day-and I was lathargic.. Saw Babe in video,JAson watched much of movie...
Crystal and Jason are sick.. Aside from the movies,, this was an unpleasent holiday weekend.,,,

9-4 Crystal starts fall semester. Her cell phone dies, and the protege engine warning light has come on inxplicably... Starting to get sick-not enjoying working in Kingston....
9-7 Crystal get her haircut, some highlights done....Visited with Spillanes for Steph's birthday. Went to Aegan Restaurant.

9-8 working in kingston this week....Went walking along Falmouth Heights with JAson. Kathy has a room.

9-13 Saturday...went to jim caroll's house for Michaels party. Spoke with MAry G.
9-14 did lawn-house cleaning ,bike ride.
9-15 Our 2nd anniversary...I got Crystal a small blue mirror. Had an argument with Crystal about internet.
9-18 Crystal returned to work-worked with Doris. Crystal receives another "A" grade on test.
9-19 Spoke with Jeff Hinners and Mary G.
9-20 Worked in Mashpee on a Saturday. Crystal buys lawn mirror from the annoying kid. Kathy's car dies. Crystal works with Mrs. poole for the first time.
9-21 a so-so Sunday . Both Crystal and i were off so we thought to do something, but neither us had the full enthusiasm for the idea, so we napped in the afternnoon, and went to Chapaqoit beach in the late afternoon to catch th sunset. Went over to
Kathy's house afterwards for dinner....

9-27 or so -Kathy buys a new car-a ford explorer suv..
9-29 take corolla in/crystal has not very good conversation with gail starr, and i am short 50 dollars in mashpee.

OCTOBER 2003
Red Sox make playoffs but go down in series with Yankees.
MIKE, JACk, BESs , Gene and Anna visit Nova Scotia

 

10-2 Meg taken to Boston for medical procedure.
10-3 Toyota Corolla retrieved from body repair....
10-4 Crystal works her first shift for Bayarda Nurses...Crystal gets JAson plastic car,which he loves. ...
10- 5 The family went to Went to New Bedford Zoo (buttonpark zoo) and to Savers stores in New Bedford and Fall River.
10-6 Worked in Mashpee and Sandwich-in a rare good mood....
10-7 Third anniversery of first date with Crystal....
10-11 worked a rare Saturday in mashpee worked in yard and in cars with Crystal after work....sd
10-12 or so. Jason starts using phase- Bubba, 'er ar' you?". Walk to Walmart with crystal..
10-13 Columbus Day -dont recall what i did....
10-15 Cubs lose to Marlins in seventh game of their series... Bad omen..
10-16 Jason had a horrible night would't go to sleep. Crystal and I have a bad argument. Crystal not feeling well, she has been throwing up again, though not based on what she eats. Red Sox win to force a seventh game with Yankees.
CHINESE SEND AN ASTRONAUT IN SPACE AND LAND HIM....
10-17 Early Friday morning. The inevitable happens yet again- Red Sox lose To Yankees 6-5 in seventh game of alcs on a Aaron Boone home run off of Tim Wakefield in what the 11th inning. The red sox were ahead in the eighth 5-2 when pedro gave up three runs....People were wondering why Grady Little didnt pull Pedro.... Yanks go off in pursuit of their 27th world championship against the Marlins...COWBOY UP...
10-18 worked in Falmouth-largely irritable. did little but read some library books etc.
10-19 Visited Boston... Got some stuff from Jimmy-he has flooding in his basement-so it looks like i need to get my stuff out of there.
10-20 Get bombed at the end of a shift in Marion,
10-27 or thereabouts Florida Marlins win World Series against New York YAnkess,Grady little is fired from Red sox, wild fires occur in Californa.
10-28 Worked in Wareham for the first time in awhile....A beautiful fall week weather wise -with some lovely foilage everywhere. Spoke with John Branges around this time.... AT some point around these days -crystal weight loss got to the point where she now weighs less than me.
10-29orthereabouts Been working mainly now in East Wareham, was 4 dollars shiort today-dont know whyTonight,(wednesday)-I am tired.
10-31 Halloween- Jim is 45. jason was cat-he trick or treated a little..slept over at ma's house. Had argument with Crystal.
11-1 Work in Falmoiuth rake leaves. Go to P.O./walmar/shaws./library. Repair guy comes about heater.
11-2 Crystal calls in sick ,for thefirst time to bayarda, crystal got notice in the vna newletter about getting a 4.0.... Jason got a slide from the people next door...

11-3 Crystal still not doingwell with food, Jason and Daddy starts to watch too much Barney...Talked with Crystal about a dog named pecos bill
11-5 Got home at what 430 with Jason, but some how wasted 4 or more hours-
desite JAson doing some barney watching, MAde muffin-pizzas-Played in rain with
jason after stopping by library....

NOVEMBER 2003

 

NOVEMBER 2003
11-1 Work in Falmoiuth rake leaves. Go to P.O./walmar/shaws./library. Repair guy comes about heater.
11-2 Crystal calls in sick ,for thefirst time to bayarda, crystal got notice in the vna newletter about getting a 4.0.... Jason got a slide from the people next door...

11-3 Crystal still not doingwell with food, Jason and Daddy starts to watch too much Barney...Talked with Crystal about a dog named pecos bill
11-5 Got home at what 430 with Jason, but some how wasted 4 or more hours-
desite JAson doing some barney watching, MAde muffin-pizzas-Played in rain with
jason after stopping by library....
11-7 Get yelled at by Mary mcCoy for being late....
11-11 .Both Crystal and I are off- So we hang out at the house-it's a frustating day-mainly-We do play a couple of games of Risk.. Get Jason's picture taken at Independence Mall-but end up retuning them....
11-13 Major windstorm start. Heard that Crystal's profitable assingment with the Mahoney's is over-cos they can not afford it.....
11-14 Friday woke up dreaming of a small snippet of a self-composed if deriative song-that seemingly was being sung by the Bangles in my dreams. I can rarely seem to go beyond one bar in my musical creations .... So my songs dont have any melody beyond the first bar.... -just got off the phone with Jimmy who didt seem to enjoy my political arguments.... Got into an minor argument with Crystal...

Heard that My cousin Tommy and his wife -had their child the Ryan Samuel Sheehan. Actually, he is the first Actual Sheehan of his generation...
11-25 worked in cotuut , not long after we got home-Crystal fainted , so we went to the emergency room-and she ended up getting some fluids--- PRobably just dehhyrdrated but we will see.
11-16 stayed here and did stuff around the house-jason occasionally was misbrabing,..
11-20 Jason put pennies in the computer....
Michael JAckson arrested once again on child related charges again.
11-21 Here at home after having eaten too many reeses pieces...
Almost comfortable in East wareham-but With Shanan it's hard , but she justs didlikes me....I keep feeling like screaming when I am there...
Crystal has been having a rough time of it recently-even though there is less to be streesed about at the moment. It seems like she is working too much.
11-23 Crystal has a really b ad D AY`
11-24 JASON HAS CONJUKITIVITS 1S1O `I `TAKE OF F OF WORK. GO LOOK FOR A DOG FOR CRYTSTAL HAVe cake at ka th y`' s.`.. `
11-27 sick on thanksgiving -stay home....
11-28 friday-my sore thriat gets worse. JAson pictures taken, Crystal gets dog- a nine week old golden retriever that she names harley
a nine week old male Golden Retreiver at debby's petland in Hyannis .
12-1 Capewide blackout...

 

DECEMBER 2003

 

 December 2003

12-1 Capewide power blackout ...
12-2 Return to MAshpee to work
COLDSPELL SETS IN>>>
12-4 or thereabouts -speak with MAry on phone, Jack has his knee procedure..
12-5 bad day once again (A friday once again) at mashpee branch
12-6 Snow storm-so idrive up nearly all the wya to lakeville branch and they tell me it's ok to go home. I feel slightly paralizsed-jason is going to wake up-i have no tab, no ice cream-and if do something useful i wont have time to finish it.... Kathy's trip to NYC cut short by snowstorm...
Spoke with anna she called me-to get our address. But then was rushing me off the phone....Why call a shoe new balance...
12-8 . Return to work-I work in Teaticket-though without Ann or Elena the place seemed different. I feel comfortable in Teaticket because i haven't had a major error there in the past year. Elena has left to go to Middleboro Adm. There is still much snow on the ground. Something about this page that does not inspire ;long paragraphs of thoughts, ?The room I am in is hot it's the only room in the house that is hot. There is still much cleaning to do...
12-12- Problems in cotuit
12-13 work in teaticket -start to be sick-crystal works another over night shift...
12-14-It is reported that Sadamm is captured Another snowstor/rainstorm.

House is a mess- despite some cleaning efforts yestreday-cos i feel much sicker.
New England PAts when their tenth straight game.

12-15 i think --crystal and i are sick ---i called today- i remain sick-i probably could have worked-i didnt feel like suffering through the day-jason went to hyannis...
12-17 attempted a little christmas shopping---crystal depressed -jason hasnt been himself-though he is not sick-saw kelly at christmas tree shop...
thursday-Crystal does well on her last final-probably has three "A's" on her classes.
Friday-Crystal has a problem with one of her clients assulted her-have to go in late to work..?Evening go to mall with Crystal At some point one of crystal's 24 house cases-once again drops Bayada-meaning Crystal loses some hours....
Saturday-off -accomplish little -finish up most of Christmas shoppping.
12-23 Jason has a session of vomiting....
12-24 Christmas eve at Mikie's house, Jason gets lots of presents...
Crystal's client doris goes to hospital so Crystal loses out on Lucrative Xmas shift....

12-25 Christmas at MA's house, and then a short session here with Rob, Meg.,
and Bizz. I get sick -start vomiting
12-27 Here on a mildly restful Saturday, Crystal moved the dog's house/crate to the living room, Jason sprayed himself with Fantastik,

JANUARY 2004

1-1 NEW YEARS SPENT AT SPILLANE HOUSE
1-9 OR SO -CRYSTAL INJURES HER BACK...
1-12 HEre on vacation-though right now it 's time pressure, and pressure from JASon going on...

1-14 'EARLY Wednesday MORNING,.,...T t wednesdday night -my vacation is now five days old- Tonight we saw _HOUSE OF SAND AND FOG...it was depressing too many people dying,,,,
1-17 Worked in Raynham ,then went to Jim's and got some of my stuff from his house...

1-23 For some reason, the day and time work again on the computer...Worked in Falmouth this past week, Was short once during the week, Lots of ice this week, though there was a spell of waremer weather.
1-27 Closed down Southland Account will transfer 3/4 of it to Plymouth ACCou n=ount.
1-29 Working this week , and for the next month or more in East Wareham, which, I never feel comfortable in, though it's a little better,

FEBRUARY 2004
Late JAn/Early FEb attempt to Jason off bottle ,but decide instead to settle on bottles with water....
2-1-04 Patriots win their second super bowl...Jason and I go to Spillanes to watch it.
2-3-04 Fiannly got some money from SOUTHLAND.
2-12 Crystal been having a bad week or two....
2-13 Friday 13th busy day at Bank in East Wareham...
2-14 Gave CRysta l treasure hunt for Valentines Day....
2-17 Horrific day at the bank mainly at the end ,when he did not have time to get checks out....
2-18 Howard DEan bows out of the presidential race....
THIS COMPUTER FIXED AFTER PROBLEM, with drive,
2-19 Ok day at bank, bad day for Crystal-Bizz and MEg fought, Bizz and Crystal drove to court only to dissover that there had been a continuace....
220-Crystal just geets lower...I miss work.. WE visit lighthouse at night,MCdonalds.Rob's and her mother.
I feel like i am not here -powerlessness, trying to get lost elsewhere....
2-21 Wor
ked Saturday.... Crystal gets some new meds -
2-22 Sunday off as usual -feeling miserable, Got crystal "Annie" DVD.
Jason generally miserable all day... Cassidy JAde came to visit....
2-24 Go to Middleboro for meeting,
2-24 or 2-25 spoke with Jimmy heard that his house was near foreclosure,
spoke with Mikie and MAry about it. Finda out that we have to give Crystal's mother -561 dollars
2-26 JASON's 2nd Birthday.. HE goes to daycare and then Spends some time with Nana. Word is that Mary is coming up to visit

March 2004
Bizz moves in on an occasional basis.
2-29-Jason's second birthday party.... MAry comes to visit Jim....Go over to Jim's afterward
3-1 Mary, Mike, Jack and I Have discussion with Jim it becomes a little too confrontational -and the concept of selling his house does not appeal to Jim.
He is very upset... And i find that i have said too much and not been very compassionate, i am troubled by what happened. It however decided by the end of
the day, that Bessie and G
ene, will probably move in with Jim, to help pay his rent...
3-7 Birthday part yfor Jason
Crystal has to quit Bayarda
3-11 Crystal picks up a private client...
3-13 or thereabouts meg gets into accident
At some point here, Jimmy got a job....
3-16 snowstorm , The discovery of planetoid SEDNA is discovered.
3-20 the whole week i have working in Teaticket....
3-21 or so,At Home today- went on trip to feed ducks with Crystal....
Crystal working night shifts all weekend...

April 1, 2004
4-2 Stint ends at East Wareham...
4-4 Go to party at Pam and Greg's...
4-6 Early morning Bizz has an episode, Crystal ends up calling 911, Bizz ends up in a rehab center.
4-7 Sun comes out.... Jim takes his first trip to Philly on his new job
4-10 or something worked Saturday-actually short in teaticket-i am having a bad sttretch of off-ages.
4-soemthing or therabouts-Jason decides he doesn't need to sleep in his crib anymore-a
couple days later we get him an inexpensive toddler bed....
4-14 Go to retail dinner thitgie at ballymeade.... Tiphany and selena win prizes
4-15 mail off taxes
4-16 short again in cotuit-april has been a bad month for offages...
4-18 visit with mike and jack go to playground....
4-19` talk with Uncle joe on phone..
4-20 crystal has amother problem with pills,I call into work for her( endangering her job fired?) I miss parts of next two days.
4-21 have to leave work early
4-22 have to call in
4-23 work in cotuit
4-24 work in mashpee some sunny weather...
4-26 Crystal misses her monday class-she has decided to admit her herself into the hosptal...
4-27 Had to call into work-Crystal went to hospital today-Cape Cod for an assesment-and though she hoped to go to Mclean, she ended up-being sent to Cape psych....
4-28 Visit crystal at cape psych
4-29 Crystal still at Cape Psch -they are actively considering Etc for her...
Brought jason over to see her, got dog food...Got into argument with Crystal....

May 2004
5-1 Satruday -visited Crystal in hospital, then went to pick up ason at spillanes...
5-2 Visited with0 Crystal at hospital...It's 10pm now-and I am feeling disorgainized..0..Tried to call Crystal at hospital but it was too late...
find out around this time that crystal was admitted to nursing program..
5-3 Crystal got transferred to Mclean...
5-4 Went 0.to Maclean hospital...spoke with ECT doctor and with social worker...0
5-5 Crystal gets her first treatment...
5-7 Crystal deadmitted from Cape pch..
5/10 to 5/14 we stay at mikie's...Take leave from work...
5-13 tarnya has her baby, Brady Ryll crystal discovers she cant make up classes....
has to challenge test one, and retake other in summer...
5-14 comeback to falmouth
5-15 feeling lathargic..trying to type here but Jason wants
to play,my back is bothering me....
5-18 crystal come home yet again BESSIE FURNITURE COMES TO JIM's house
5something crystal goes to emergency room about problem with teeth-they think she has a cracked tooth..
some problem around this time with our phone service eing switched.
5-28 Got hired at white hen -trouble at work-bounce more checks....

 

JUNE 2004.
. Jason becomes a litttle bit more disobdeient
6-2 am 225 short but no what it was and it is recovered
6-3 evening Crystal goes back to the hospital again-cos doctor is concetnbed about her reaction to ect....
6-4 Have to go into cotuit late...work again at white hen, jessica blames us for her boucning a check...
6-9 CRystal gets out of at mclean, finds out that she probably has been having seizures...
6-14 Crystal gets a mri done....
6-15 work again in East wareham
6-16 crystal has another eeg done. i visit lighthouse with jason....
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6-20 mowed lawnm bike ride, went out to dinner at bbq place...

6-21 lovely day weather wise , today a hard day working in east-doing computer programing , went to lighthouse wih jason, crystal started summer school
6-22 Visited in regular wareham branch.
6-23 find out that i am a victime of idenity theft.
6-25 or therabouts -biz starts a new job but gets let go the next day.
6-29 Crystal starts a new job with ?Shoreway ACres
LAte June Crystal possibly has a miscarriage.... WE LATER NAME THE UNBORN CHILD -ALEX
. April 1, 2004

July 2004

Problem with Biz..she start a fight with crystal and ends up moving out....
7-4 Walk to fireworks - Jason is scared of them., ends up throwing up later...
7-5 Holiday off from work going to go to Trainor party but JAson is sick..
7-11 jason pissed into the potty for the first time, did one of occasional visits to the harbor parking lot which involve going up the steps of the motel nearby and the playground... Visited nana at stop and shop ... Crystalt missed her
appointemnt with tarnya 7-10 saw a little of Star trek -nemesis....
7-11 or thereabouts jason starts going to the older toddler 's room on a regular basis....
7-16 crystal gave notice at her new job- shoreway acres...
7-18 have to cancel a trip to visit bessie, jimmy comes down here instead and we go to british beer company...
7-21 Crystal started her new job at pro-cuts accross from Stop and shop///.. Jessica's new niece dies within minutes after her birth due because she was too premature....
7-22 SPOKE WITH JD for a minute or two on his birthday....
7-25 feel lathargic till about 4pm
7-26 take jason swimming at the beach in the early evening...DEmocratic convention starts in Boston....
7-27 working in east wareham yet again...Got off at 345 hoped that rob was taking jason to Barnstable fair so that i could accomplish a few things but apparently not-jason tired after school -he takes a short nap....
7-31 took JAson swimming in Evening at Falmouth Heights beach...
LAte July Democratic convention in Boston, kerry nominated...

AUGUST-DECEMBER 2004

 

AUGUST 2004
During Jason poops on the potty, I start having a neckache.

Tuesday nioght 8-3 Visited with Bessie cyrstal's summer semester ends......It was hot there got there late ar0ound 630-stayed till 10pm...Jason was in a good mood. Bessie said they decided to move to Salem in a apartment.
m,t,w worked in the falmouth branch which they are renovarting ,hasbeen busy there, I actually miss sitting next to Carol. ,missed two Psb gatherings,
8-8 I think JAson and i walked along the heights along the rock wall path...
8-9 Tammy is 31 now, I remember her birthday -it's the only way i have left to honour what was good about our friendship... Saw Spiderman 2 with Crystal
8:10 11-11 Had review with MAryann in Cotuit... after being late to work...Went to Hyannis to buy Crystal
's nursing books- 448 dollars... Jason was miserable.
Harley got a reprive from being sold..... Spoke with Jeff -he is finally moving into to his new house...next week....
8-12 to 820 on vacation-a stay at home vacation. Orginally going to go to NH for a day...but decide not to do
8-17 ?LAndlord comes to house-finds out we have tenant , the tenant has t o move out, we may have to as welll...Crystal very distraugt, we go to kingston mall-she gets watch and ringguard/..
8-20 Figure out that Bizz has stolen our cell phone...She denies, More tire trouble..
Skip Friday shift. Go to mikies' with JAson-turns out there is power outage....

8-21-o4 Gene's Eighty Third Birthday PArty...CAsey and Yollo ,their children:Fran and Mike , a girl named Jackie, The spillanes, Jimmy, myself and Jason come to party.
Very rainy day.....
8-23 My neck has been bothering , begninning to wonder if it something other than a muscle ache....
Borrowed SONGS FROM THE SECOND FLOOR From the libary..
8-24 JASON POOPS ON THE POTTY FOR FIRST TIME, Also pees. Crystal calls in sick third day in a row.....
Spoke with CCCS, they say i have to either pay 769 month or declare bankruptcy..
Life is wonderful....
8-26 paid car insurance ,but where's the money for the rent... Worked in
Cotuit, was stressed much of the day, Went to Walmart and to a private beach with JAson, near surfside...
8-30 Had incidnet at work -my head got all cloudy-...went to emergency room.
BEssie starts moving.....
8-31 went to independence mall crystal got shoes for nursing school ,i went to PCP doctor , he didnt think i had tumor or something...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

September 2004
Crystal injures her hand at at pro cuts....

September 1 had cat scan due to problem on monday with neckache/strange head sensations...
September 4 worked with new guy, Patrick at white hen
September 5 2004 It's a sunday a beutiful if chilly dayI slept in the morning (meg was here, went to cyrstal some lunch, but wasted a lot of time...., and took a bidke ride, I am tired, i think therefore i am , Lots of colorful full clouds in the sky,,,

908 Steph's birthday had Jason call....
9-9 a rare ok day-though apparently i didnt count my draw correctly this morning-was late to work-parly on purpose, cos i had time to lose...
september 10 or therabouts crystal cuts her hand badly while cutting hair
septembber 12 visited spillanes for steph's party
september 13 or something crystal finally gets work from the VNA after aobut four or five months...
sept 15 third aniiviersary.//
9-17 A depressing Friday-probl with daycare reumbursement,mo monry
9-18 discover car engine ligght on Mazda,, new employee traingin at White Hen-adam....Finally get day care check....
9-19 Crystal misses work....jason has a bad day-i feel lousy , crystal loses
a lot of time....
9-22 Jason and i have nice day-I meet at daycare for lunch, play for few minutes afterwards, take him to two libarieris and north falmouth, and west falmoutj, visit a graveyard, watch the sunset at chapiquiot or it migght have been old silver and go to mcdies,,,,
9-21 Harlye nearly destroys a rooster, jason plays with neighbors kids/

 

OCTOBER 2004
10-1 Jason and I to Bessie's new apt in Salem, Gene was doing poorly...
10-2 LEave Bessie's
10-4 Return to Mashpee, Five dollars short!!!!!!
at some point Crystal quits hair salon job...at

10-8 meg oges to hosptial ,but nothing happens
10-9 A wasted saturday...
10-10discover that once again my bike has been stolen on a wasted sunday
10-12 go to boston for a cat scan for crystal....
10-13 Work in teaticket, here stacy is leaving I consider going there, but discover that the part time wants the job so dont consider it seriosly...crystal and argue over her sisters, here gene has been in the hospital...bike returned, Red sox lose again to Yankees, now down 2-0.
1o-15 Red sox get blown out 19-8 in Boston
10-16 RED SOX WIN
10-17 RED SOX WIN
10-19 RED SOX WIN
10-20- RED SOX WIN last day of red sox-yankees series....red sox surprise by winning last four games and taking series from yanks...
Aaron leaves White Hen ...
October 27 2004 - red SOX WIN WORLD SERIES..--It's getting colder now-this month steamrollered...
oct 31 jason mainly goes to robs for halloween...
LAte october Gene in hospital/ten rehab center
late October Stacy Sarafiuan leaves Teatcikset cosnider going there but decidde against....when i discover that jennie is taking the postiotn...
Some point here problem with Netti and police..Meg goes into program, Tv gets foggy...

 

 

Novmeber 2004..
Nov 2 or thereabouts- Bush wins presidential election....

Nov 6 jim visits here at house.. Cathy leaves White Hen, thus I am now # 5 in seniority..
Nov 8 finally buy shingles///
10-14/15 rob does shingles...
At some point Allison lends Crystal her laptop...
nov 15 crystal got 96 on nursing test...bad day at sandwich ,broke again..
nov 16 harley escapes and injures losing pieces of two pads...himself 94 dollars...

november 24 Thanksgiving At Bessie's in Salem
Attendees Bess, Gene, Mike, Jack S.,Treecie, Steph, Myself, Crystal, Jason, MAry G, Jack G, Meg G, JD, Uncle Joe

 

 

 

 

. - Yours in Stig, DECEMBER 2004
Early December-Joyce Goosman leaves Mashpee...

Dec 6 Crystal finally turned her in 25+paper for Nursung class.Problems at bank with old transactions-waiting for resoltions..

Dec 8th Took jason to library
12-12 took jason -to see his first movie.THE POLAR EXPRESS
12-14 and 12-15 Visit Mikie and Bessie
Last few weeks in December Bizz stays with us ...
12-19 short at Teaticket
12-21 meeting with Maryann

12-24-Christmas at your mothers
12-25 Christmas here for jason in the morning and at Spillanes in afternoon
12-26 Jasomn gets haircut TSUNAMI STRIKES INDIAN OCEAN everntually over 100,000 are thought to have died....
12-27 one foot of snow falls -delayed opening at work...
12-29 Worked in cotuit -drgged over to mashpee-cos they couldnt find mutilated in a drawer i uised two weeks before...

2005

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January 2005
1-12 Harley gets hit y car
1-13 harley released..
1-14/15 visit bessie-she gets permanent..
1-16 Finally. See Meet the fockors. another snowstorm
1-22 call meg and therabouts Big snow storm 30 inches.....
1-17 MLK day off-cleaned house---organized crystal worked long day for VNA....
1-26 mary calls to say she got presents and that she will be undergoing surgury..
late January get cars inspected. Hear that tipany Clark is to be married..
1-30 visit with dave benway and with jimmy
..February 2005
snow has not melted ..crystal's back is bothering her.
2-3 Harley has another surgery
2-4 Doctor Flaherty recommends that crystal not work
2-5 Crystal back flares up badly at work-
2-6 attend super bowl party at aunt mike's =PATS Win
it's all very strange is it not.
2-10 mary undergoes surgury
2-11 last day in cotuit for the moment..snow is still on the ground=though lots of ground spots..
2-17 NHL Season cancelled..Gosh its hard to write things with Jason never going to bed when he is supposed to ....
2-19 harley finally seems to be healed -no cone...He still walks funny when tired....Problems at PSb it took forever to get out....

2-20 It is sunday I am working tonight at night the first Sunday over night at the Hen.....,Debbie and John broght over loveseat... It is sunny but cold...
The lawyer next door seems to be subdiding his property...
2-22 Meg had her son after about 36 hours of labor.... She named him Marcus Christian?.She had him at Falmouth Hospital....Crystal was with her during most of the labor....
2-26 Jason's birthday party-Pam of MAine ,two of her girls came, debbie and brianna, Melissa & marcus, Bizz, and MA were there...Jessica showed up for a little bit...
2-27 early Melissa's unnamed son (later named Hunter Antonio -Was born about 45 mintues after midnight..
2-28 Meghan was admitted to hospiutal..Had a generally good day out with jason ,went to lighthouse, saw seal, saw MElissa's child..
Meghan was admitted to hospiutal...
Couldnt work at white hen-had to call in-cos Crystal was working and we had no coverage...

March 2005

SPECIAL DATE NOTES...
10-2602001 bought mattress- for 737.20
aug 2003-est. of coroola repair 3670.71
2-28 1064.25
went to eye docor 9-11-03

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3-6 Jason goes to Spillanes for bithday...Borrowed money from Spillanes
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3-12 took car in for engine light they did find anything
3-13 vacation starts-a sunny day-snowy and wet...took jason for a ride in his snow bike in back yard, corrolla battery got drained out...
3-14 visit with bankruptcy attorney..
3-16 Crystal breaks one of her toes...Jason is sick so we dont go to Boston...
3-22 Crystal instructor tells her that she cant wear boot...
3-23 Crystal goes to foot doctor, he tells her she should wear a boot.
3-25 had to miss work
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APRIL 2005
4- 3 or therabouts POPE JOHN PAUL II dies...after a long deathwatch...which in the terminal period actaully only lasted about 36 hours...
4-10 Go to maryland
4-10 JD has first communion....
4-11 Go back to MAssachusetts, See Jeff Hinners drive through NYC during rushour...Get tax refund....
4-13 it's nearly midnight....AROUND HERE BENDICT !6 is elected to repalce JP2...
4-16 or therabouts,prob with biz she moves out
4021 feeling a little lost after a prob at work nad other things-it figures cos i was having a pleasent day.
April 29/30 Visit Jim with Jason at his house-Saturday is rainy....

MAY 2005

MAy 1 Bizz had her baby-Jaydon at 10;34pm he is seven pounds 21 inches....I missed justins first comminion...
MAy 13/14 cRystal sees JAydon for first time...
May 16 Go offlime from Aol.
May 21 Visit here in Falmouth with Treeci, JAck, Mike and Bessie...
May 27 LASt day as PSb
May28 Bank opens as Eastern
May go visit Horse farm, independence mall. Here at some point round here that Kathy has gotten a computer...
may 31 My first day working under eastern banner. At some point here I learn that are cash limits have gone up, and that MAry ann will not be my boss after the end of month..

JUNE 2005

June 1-3 Things go OK until the end of the day Friday when I realize I have an offage,which puts me into warning status at least under the Plymouth limits...Have a long conversation with Jeff he tells me he has been on disability....
June 4 work in falmouth the day starts badly, and doesn't get better..Take Jason to harbor Where we see a boat moved by a truck , and to the library where atend story time..
Have a rough day at the Hen too. Mosquitos
June 5 rest much of the day, late in the day go to Woods Hole with Jason, ,miss chance to go to farm...
June 6 Jason got his bubble lawn mower today, for successfully having potty trained....
MidJune , problems with Jason misbehaving...spitting is the worst of it.
June `12 wasted Sunday
June13 Go to kitefield with Jason...
June 15 Bizz leaves after staying a few days here

June19 Father's Day-Jason has a bad day at robs hits MArcus---
June 23 -Have gaterhing for MAry ann...
LAte June-I develop a cold
June 27 finally mow back lawn for only the second time this year...

 
Also thanks to the color green, fuzzy, SIR TIM BERNERS LEE , the red shirted crew guy that died, that can July 2005

July 4 th Go to TRainor party with JAson ,see missy, treci, steph, jack, mike bess gene joe and various carrolls..
July 5 JAson visits at SPillan es...
July 7 or therabouts -phone dies. Terrorist attack in London...
JULY 8 -here off of work for second day in a row-i am sick-annoying cos i had been sick and had gotten better.... Crystal brought back Bizz today(july 8)....using her mothers car from Maine....
July 15 Busy day at cotuit Carol Massota had her surgury this week, and Sharon Jesse Ferrell died in a car crash.....Got JasonWiggles DVD....which got brolen the next day...
7-21 Let'ss see another small terrorist attack in London, mold attacks here in the garage, Dawn silcox announces she is leaving from Teaticket, Crystal had a major migrane headache, cleaned JAson's fan finally, JAMES DOOHAN DIED yesterday
7-22 to 7-30 the fair comes to town..Jason visits three times once with pa, nana and Crystal& I..
7-24 sunday-crystal cant sleep, had bad argument with crystal saturday night..On Sunday Rob, went to the fair with Jason, Meg and Bizz also went to the fair.....I met Crystal's grandmother, inadverdently, not at a good time, right after Jaydon got thrust upon us for the fourth night in a row.....
7-30 Crystal and I go to fair with Jason...
7-31 I watch Jaydon for a little while ...

AUGUST 2005
AUGUST 1 Internet is back on. Biz having issues, crystal having trouble sleeping
August 3...Crystal classes end-she had rewrite her paper from scratch in a matter of hours,-and Keyspan shut off the gas today We paid the half the bill a few days later...
August 13 Jimmy came by visited we walked to beach, I had to borrow some money....
August 14 Vinnie's birthday- party lots of Bazilans dere.... There was a bazilian cake....
August 16 -Problems with JASon, Crystal had to miss work again cos of whatever is bothering her.
august 20 _gene's 84th birthday party....at their apartment both of Ges's daughters, and more than 20 others were there....Learn that lenny is father of marcus....
August 21 visited with Mike and Jack....
Dusciver that crystal may have cervical cancer.
Electricity gets cut off///
Here Meg and Vinnie are engaged and that Marcus true father is lennie....
August 27 -Went swimming at Falmouth heights, visited library...
August 28 - Went Swimming at Silver Beach.otherwise unpleasant Sunday....
August 30 -Sept 2 Vacation from Eastern Bank.Visit Dr. Von ham with crystal
Wednesday doctors appt catscan-no problem with tumour, 2 year followup on Gastric Bypass.
Thursday went to Swan boat .
Huuricand Katrina destroys much of Sotuh Coast, related floods destory New Orleans

SEpTEMBER 2005

Friday came back Had to borrow money from Spillanes up to 5000 from them...
Sunday went to drive i n movie
Labor day went t o to woods hole with JAson-
9-7 Spoke with Mary finally....
Mid September JAson has been playing a lot with neighbor girl friends next door, crystal reminded biz she had to move out, the septic tank was cleaned out, crystal resumed schoool,,,,
9-15 Went to doctors to check on my foot got stuck in traffice for four hours...
9-18 didnt do anything this weekend...
9-19 Crystal just puked, Earlier ?Jason was pulling red beries from bushes, we went to ocean...
9-22 crystal discovered she got let go from pro Cuts... I was trying to find two important letters-and couldn't find them, jason second car seat was on the verge of getting mold, the kitty wants to get out, bizz is on the phone, jason's lunch is not made, crystal got some sort of appt, she does not know about ,icant find my badge, the garage is a mess, i got billls i havent opened, i cant pa y the rent, nobody likes the dog, and yet he is a sweet dog....life is painful...
9-24 Crystal got together with Melissa
LAte September another Hurricane-Rita follows KAtrina with less havoc....
9-28 Crystal hears she may get loan-my foot still bothers me...
930 Tiphany clark got married ,biz and crystal have an arguenet but make op

OCTOBER 2005...

10-1 I go harvest festivel iwth jason- i dont work in bank today red sox lose and end up losing divsion to yankees ...
102 Life is waiting for the moment of transendence...
10-3 crystal had a bad day-we were busy at mashpee, with little bits of stress....
Early October The red sox do poorly in playffoo against Chicago-they are swept...
106 Call from Mikie indicating that Gene had taking a turn for the worse...he had been doing worse over the past five days... Crystal, Jason and I ove up to Salem to visti, we got there after 8 and stayed past midnight , Gene didnt recognize us, though he showed faint signe s of recognition like a eybrow a few times whilst we there....
10-7 EuGene Casey died around 7:30pm.... i got the word from Jimmy after 9pm.....he died peacffully with Patrick, Fran and Bess by his side...
10-13 Gene is buried in Nc ...Bess, Trecci, jack, mike, mary and kids go..
10-17crystal has problems with tb test at school
10-21-See lawyer
10-27 or therabouts -Crystal is told by clincical insructor mary anne that she is about to be put on warning -supposedly crystal is weak clinicly and endangering patients....The same day she goes to daycare meeting and hears that Jason is having lots of outbursts at daycare....'
`0-38 crystal buys computer hp-laptop
10-29 pay rent and car paymetn...

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2005 Novemberer
11-8 worked in sandwich, their have been riots in France....
11-12 Visited at tommy house-did so well!!!llffglh
11-18or therabouts teller appreciatiob day-won a day off with pay...Bessi visited....
11 -20did a litttlw lawn work-,cyrstal told biz to leave by 12-10...

11-21 t-leslie marsh calls and recommends i work in cotuit. crystal has troble finishing paper....
11-22t agree to work in cotuit-and not overly happy abo ut the situation....
11-24 Thanksgiving in Waterown .Missy cooked -I made a fool of myself by suggesting Missy and Dave should get married....otherwise a good Turkey day.....Got to see steph's nad Treeci's apartment....
11-28 official first day at cotuit...

December 2005
12-1 Called and wished Mary a happy birthday...
early december got sim city working but seems to be less functional than the version on crystals old computer....
SEt up rug chair and computer in office...

12-9 crzy winter hurricane.
12-10 Judi mcElroy had her baby emilee
12-12 Meg hospitalized ...Lotsa of probelms with Biz-will she ever leave....she has been here since July 8th...
12-12 to 12-17 carol massotta on vacation-I , karen Kent working.,..
12-14 Around this time Bizz finally moves out-and soon ends up in rehab...
Crystal watches the baby over the weekend...
Walmart loses a roll of film of mine...
12-20 discover that i didnt have to moved from being a float teller....
12-21 or sometuhing -Crystal has her final in nursing, Maliqua and Marissa dont make it...
12-22 ? Another stressful holiday season-this year we have no money...
te littlest things stress me out....
12-22 have a bad experiecne at walmart four long lines-only one regular register open..
12-23 Rob and Carol came over and brought jason's tv and other gifts
12-24 sick at christmas -had three days off in a row..
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12-25 christmas at 90 hudson and at kathy's house...
I was too sick to go to kathy's... We had no tree at our house
WE left for Boston-crystal stopped on the way to help out as first responder to thrre car accident... Nice christmas at spillanes. stay over at spillnaes
12-26 go to jims house.
12-26 major problems with biz come to a head when crystal calls about car-and biz and boyfriend get taken in for drugs....
12-28 crystal at court recieves temporary guardianship of jayden...JASON HAD PRECITED A CHRISTMAS BABY!
2005- previous months
2006

January 2006
Spend newyears at white hen....
Jnauray 5 2005-Crystal runs ointo isisue with daycare for Jayden....
January 6, 2006--rare good day-got some paperwork done at work, jason ate some food he rejected earlier
January 14 2006-PArtriots lose and get kicked out of playoffs...Corolla has trouble...and doesn't start...
crystal gets letter from Vna indicating she has voluntarily resigned...cos they have not given her anywork for six months....
January 15, 2006- Went to plymouth and visited the Hinkles-jason and ian didnt quite get along....Ian is
year and 10 months older-almost five-went to target, but didnt buy anything,,,,
Martin luther king day.. spoke with mary Galuardi about jayden....
january 16th 2006 -my 43rd birthday---jayden fell out of chair-though he seems ok-...truing to organize house -before school.
Surprisingly my clock still works -it always seems strange when the clock on this 12oo dollar compouter goes back to 1/1/1904....
January 18 or something-discover that Jack Galuardi has been laid off from his job....Judi comes back...
Janury 19 life is so continously hard---two days in a row -I have come home and crystal has been Judi comes back.... bothered by what if going on with jayden...Finally mailed bankruptcy stuff-it was still missing stuff...end up having other problems with it anyway...
January 29 Visit with Jimmy in Independence mall-borrow some more money....
January 30 Crystal comes by work-all happy-bit whne I get home there are problems with Jason at school, and biz finds out

 

 

February 2006

 

 

February 5 Go to treeci and stephie's house for super bowl parrty.....Steelers win...
February 7 more trouble with biz she is getting out of gosnold-cos her insurance is running out....
PROBLEMS WITh BIzz, she ends up livi
ng with Crystal's Aunt Eileen..only to get kicked out of there eventually....
Febrruary 11 Off-Accomplished a few things, but jason not cooperative in the libary...
February 12 Major snowstorm 8-12 inches....cold day... not a particularly good day with jason
February 17/18 crystal's back is bothering her....
February 19 sunday off before Presidents day....car didnt start-ended up not meeting jim...Anxiety
cos i want to just write about today or yesterday, but dont have the paitence....
2-23 finally watched some olympics -woman'sfigure skating...like rosayln summers i ended up liking the amercian favoirte sasha cohen, and not really liking the winner the japanese girl.. My personal favorite was emily hughes, but she was only seventh...I am trying to remember if i watched figure skating everywinter olymipics r-perhaps i missed 1998-tara lipsinski....
Crystal may be working at Bayarda as a home helath aide-crystal got 97 on her nusing test...
new guy giancarlo nobre started at work today....
2-25marcus birthday party-ruff day- a little bit of snow...crystal worked again today for the first time since august 05...
2-26 jason birthday Crystal got him a donut with candles
March 2006
March 2006
3-3 met with Tina Kent...

3-4 PArty for Jason here
3-5 party for Jason at mikie's CRAsh (a movie i have pretty much not heard of) won best picture....
3-6 I have a headache..
3-10 Shannon Irish last day at work--
3-11 took jayeden to church with jason...

3-12 first weekend of vacation, but have accomplisehed little.Actual vacation was 13 14 15 16 17
I have a headache, and had lousy day cos i have had so little sleep..Been reading a book about the leper colony on Molokai..

3-14 went to imagination island, had flat tire, biz kicked out by leenie...
3-17 visited with Uncle Joe and Jimmy and Marcus....
3-17/318 went to bessie's for St patrick day there were lots of people at the party
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Rough week
first bizz goes off on me, then J-son gets in trobule for hitting teacher again...
3-26 rRough day -j-ray bee n sick- i have been tired.

3-28 -Crystal admits she suffering bad depression, and she has problems with her computers after talking with Hp tech support.....J-ray is better....
3-29 meeting about Jason, discover he can no longer go past lunch at daycare...Get mazda emissions repaired....
3-31
March is nearly pver was about to write something but find it hard to do in log...

April 2006

April 1 last day at white hen... the last people I worked with were sharon, john stukas, andrew ,suzanna, and amber...been there almost two years...
4/3 through 4/4 mike and Jack wathc Jason...
4/4 irritating days
4-9 First night off at white hen, but still irritable the next day...PARTY for Kathy's birthday...
4-10 discover hering...

4-14 Friday try to type just a few words , but it doesnt se to happen finally got toyota repaired,censor not working....Finallly give official notice of JAson's leaving daycare...
415 to 4+16 easter at jimäs ...
mid april i get sick jason leaves vna daycare officialluy
4+20 VISITED JASON ÄS DAYCARE LAST TIME....
4+23 SUNDAY GOT UP EARLUY, DID SOME LWAN WORK BOTH BOYS GOT UP ARLY AND WENT TO BED LATE.... CRYSTAL WORKED TWO OVERNIGHTS...
TRYING TO RIGHT SOME THING HERE, BUT AS UNUSAUL TOO MUCH ANXIETY...
4-25 another rough day cos as I am sick and crystal is under pressure qirg school, and there are the usual headaches with jason.....took car in and the couldnt fix it the problem again,..
weeke ended really sick most of week-cyrstal got a 97 on a test she expected to do poorly on-but did poorly on statitictics test...

4-31 Jayden's b-day party-bizz beahved ok-small party just cyrstal's family...nice trip to lighthous and beach with jayden and jason

MAY 2006 ---
JAYDEN STARTED WALKING the week right after his birthday
5-1 problem with car insurance averted...."Day without the immigrant" protest...

nurasing final friday 12th 10:30
statitics final wed 10th
intenrt nursing monday 15
clep test may 8 final
5-7 to 5-12 On vacation...
5-11 went to emergencey room -hut my hadn...

5-13 to 5-14 visited bessie with the boys lots of flooding in Salem...
5-20 Crystal took her clep test meeting the last requriement for graduation./...

5-25 crystal did graduate at melody tent

cRcrYSTAL GRAUDATED YESTERDAY-mAY 25TH ...AT THE CAPE COD MELODY TENT...
IN a lot of ways  we didnt fully experence the whol thing-i read in the paper there was a pinning ceremony-which we didn't go to-bessie, wasnt'there, crystal didn go to rehrsal, or to the party a week ago.... mmaliqua didnt make it-she was ewent to wwrong plac e, also it wasnt clear wehterh they got cyrstal honbors right on the program that i seem to have lost... I got crystal flowers cos i didnt wanted to at leas tthat... c
 
crystal got dolled up as much as she could... she had a oragne sash-with the symbol of the honor soceity-
 
jason and jaydenm which  watched by debbie smioth and brianna,,,, Jason was bad -he bit rianae,...  it was good wether for it .. about 490 people graduated including the first people to grasdute from the massage therapy programm...
 
theior bag pipers dressed in green finery-who provided th emusic-it took a long time fro the people to fil in,.....there were a lot of little speeches, and a presentation for teacher o  the year.... to a science teahcer who played a banjo...
 
the commencement speaker was from a community college in roxbury-she was warm, a great great grandgiugfhter of slaves, and made note that was first generation college gradiate-crystal is actually a secdond genearion since leenie graduated.. a lot was made of all the peopl ellike crystal who went part time and thus took a long time to graduate...
 
a lot of the nursing graduates had RN on their hat surrounded by hearts opr whatever...
 
louis spekeman read out the names of the nursing graduates.. one of my customers carrie warren graduated as well from the nursing programm...
there was a screen on the tent ceiling so that people could see the ceremony...since only the graduates really had a view  of the stage- although the stage rotates that feature was not taken adavangaate..
 
kathy, meg, Uncle jack, Aunt Mikie, bess,  and I attended...
 
Kim orlando spoke for the studnets not the class prdesidnet or  class valedxcitoria
 

 

5-28 go to woodhole with mike, jack, bess, trecci, jayden and jason
crystal got her grades she got a c on one of her classes.
5-29 MONDAY go to martha's vinyard with mike, jack, bess, trecci and jason
crystal watches marcus... biggest impression was of the turn of the centtruy feel of oak bluffs...and the endless discussion of cleebrities on the bus tour...I would like to write more but i dont have the paitence-lots of siscuision about hats, went to "flying horses".
5-20 rough day at work...
Go swimming... with treci

june 2006-
6-4- went to chruch with jayden and jason, - to sote and finally took jason alone to a beach in waaqoit/mashpee that we had been to before///
6-6 second day of judy at work-a little rough at the bank-had tough evning watching the kids.,-yesterday wasnt so great either-jayden fell or bumped his head three times a inlduing once when he was in the carriage -and a it fell back...-and then jason spotted a strange burise on my body..
Got saturday- bamkruptcy letter from lawyer. tuesday-i got if fro m the court...
6-7
BAd rains today-crystal had two nurxing interviews-Jayden got stuck in bath seat//off 500 dollars at work-though it was because o acheck that was not bathced..
6-7 crystal had 2 interviews..
6-8 sent stuff again to atty...
6-9 spoke with jeff on phone
6-10 a bad in that cyrysta lcallced in to work-thus we lost 12x16 dollars.
6-11 vsitied with Jim at hanover mall -crysta lgot hair done...
6-16 bad day at work
6-18 father's day-started with getting a card from jayden, then their was a big argument....
crystal gets job working for st.Luke's..in new bedford
jason goes on meds
ihave bankruptcy hearing,
vinnie breaks up withmeg , but the yget soon backj togehter

July 2006
July 1- work in bankl
July2- mow lawn... .
JULY3- BAD DAY AT HOME, JASON GOES TO FIREWORKS WITH NEIGHBOR FREIENDS..
JULY4 -DAY OFF HAD ALL THREE KIDS AGAIN,..TOOK MARCUS TO store AND TO playground , JASON AND MARCUS SWAM IN POOL. watching a little of My Brilliant careetr....so disroganized , crystal puts up air conditioner...
july 5th -augh wish i was a bit more organized

Hear that Phil trainor-died around July 4,2006
July6, Rich holbrook arrives for a short surprise visit at eastern....
July 10 visit with beeie in salem....
July 14, 2006 crystal takes n-clex
July 17, 2006 crystal finds out she passed n-clex....
crystal starts her job with a trainging class at st.Luke's chrystal ssys I have a ingrown toenail..

Israel and Hezbelooah at war
July 21 an annoying week -jason getting sick-i am having trouble making 40 hours
Bush finally does a veto.... at the job, i may be sick, tab cans not on sale anywheree,,,,Dog has problem with toeneaill..
JULY 22 or therabouts meg goes into hospital./.
July 24 -crystal's orientation at work-JASON, crystal, marcus, jayden and I go to the fair...crystal and Jason go on three rides togethaer, jason goes on the pirate ship a few times..... GOES TO THE FAIR lost a sponspe bob...
JKuly 25 Pick up all three kinds at work.... jason goes to fair with kathy,marcus...
July 26 Crystal get into a minor accident...kitty has cancer
July 27 Luna is probably got terminal cancer./.later turn out not to e the case...
July29 worked the saturday., bad stressful week---still prob with banvrupcytrch
Took jason,jayden to fair again--went to beach-beach near harbor....
Meg in rehab...

 

August
August 1 bad day cyrstal diabrtes cropping up...toke jason and Jayden to playground in woods hole....
AUGUST 3 CRYSTAL WORKS FIRST DAY IN HOSPITAL! I GET MY INGROWN NAIL
August 6, 2006 party for crystal
August 8, 2006-
HAave problem with ties
LUNA SEEMS BETTER ,maybe the ver was wrognm,,,,,,
crystal has four days off -unpleaset5n four days...
HAve probelm with chest pain b-go to ER....I still have problem with CHEST PAIN!!! tirms out i have shingles//
Discover that the chest pain is shingles..
JASON GOES AND VISIT Mike and Jack...
Pluto demoted from planet status....finally finsih letter to steve....

 

August
August 1 bad day cyrstal diabrtes cropping up...toke jason and Jayden to playground in woods hole....
AUGUST 3 CRYSTAL WORKS FIRST DAY IN HOSPITAL! I GET MY INGROWN NAIL
August 6, 2006 party for crystal
August 8, 2006-
HAave problem with ties
crystal has four days off -unpleaset5n four days...
HAve probelm with chest pain b-go to ER....I still have problem with CHEST PAIN!!!
Discover that the chest pain is shingles..
JASON GOES AND VISIT Mike and Jack...
Pluto demoted from planet status....finally finsih letter to steve....

 

august 26th picked up jason from mike's ..all sort of thoughts going throhh my mind,,mostly meaningless unimportant ones-the main one was the anxiety from being htehere with mike and Jack , secondary and oppoistely a nice family feeling from spending time with juim and Joe, thirdly thinking about the concert we enjoyed, seeing liz carlie and rusell somebody other...jason got a penguin from mikie , and he seems to love it-///
Augsut 29 visited dawn about daycare...
august 30 saw tina somedbody about jason...She would shut up-she wants to get rid of parental rights..

Sept-Oct 2006

 

SEPTEMBER 2006
September 5 Labor day weekend crystal off three days, jayden a little bit sick-so we dont go to mikies' labor day was nice weather...Meg and vinnie stopped over...
setp6 or something katie couric starts at CBS .
Steve irwin dies somewhere around here....
Sept 9MAry calls to tell me that Tawny died/...AT SOME POINT HERE JACK GALUARDI GETS JOB..in Virginaia.....
Sept 10 unenventful weekend-cleaned around house-jayden sick still..
Jayden missed partss of t of three days at daycare...

spet 11 jason's first day at the new daycare..SILCOX FAMILY DAYCARE..
Sept 17 Foster parent day at mass milityary academy...
sept 19 Jayden seems to break his toe, but does not.,go speeding ticket.
Crystal has problem with precepeto (Leslie) and gets new precepto(cheryl)

OCTOBER 2006
Octber 1 party at jim's stayover night....

October 6 or somehting busy day at bank , wathcing a little of Before Sunrisese....
Bizz in jail./// Crystal and with rob's money eventually lets her out-
new people move in 800000 dollar home
watch before susnet, before sunsrise and united 93,,...
saturday take jayden and jkason to east falmouth----having a wek where iat onepoint i was very energetic and effient and at another point much less so...
right now -i cant find the disc to BEFORE SUNSET and i am concerned that i have lost it - i had wanted to watch it again,,,Yankees elimnatiated from playoff again-the renovation of the libaraery has discombobualted me a little sicne i have to to different livarries...,

crystal called intowork today cos she got caught in traffic----makes me nervous,,
the boys and iwent to get pumpkins at Tony Andrews farm....

Crystal told by Gail Davis that she is going to talk to higher-ups about her..
Friday had to leave work early.
Satudday October 21 worked with deb, and carol---.
Sunday, October 22 stayed at home cleaned house mainly---
bessie having knee problemss
Tueday halloween Jayden stays home from daycare....
Halloween Jason is spiderman , Jayden a dragon, visited Roib's mom-viriginaia, and roxanne....

 

NOVEMBER 2006
LATE OCTOBER /early november bessie moves....St.Loious Cardinels win world series....
Nov 3 Crystal is told by her manager Gail to either reesign or be fired...
crystal is sick she has a sore trhait
November 6or 7 Crystal emails her resignation.. (apprently meg quits her job or is fired at his time as well...
Turday election held Democrats take back both houses of congress, Deval Patrick become governor, Donald Rumsfeld resigns... .
Early november word is that Lincoln, Eleanor's husband is not doing so well, so Mike and JAck visit, and considering changing houses, so as to enable to Elenoar to move up here....
November 10 receive bbletter finally informing of accpetence of myu bankruptchy pettion..
Novembmeber 11- Go visit Anne and tommy sheehan for party....
Mike, Jack, Bee, Joe me , jayden and jason go...
MAry Chjristine, Anna Sheehna,m Jay his wife, lennie, and other also attend... it goes better than the last couple of times i went there, though iid did leave Harlwyt jackltert//

November 11 Part 2-0Hear that Jack Galuardi is not doing well, PAt Spillane's last sister died, and
that Lincoln (elanor's husband is not doing well....)....

Nov 15 low level rain and damp combined with warm weather...
nov 17 Speak to jack in hospital... Get letter that dawn is kicking Jason out of daycare...
. Speak with Jeff hinners -had finally maild him tumbleweed things ...
Nov 18 Crystal and I speak with MAry....


Nov 23 Visit anne for a second.. Thanksgiving at Bessies Bes,Jack,Mike, Joe, Jim,Steph, MElissa, Tressci, Dave and Steph's roomate Alex showed up...Bess's aprt,ent looked great....
nov 24 crystal 29th birthday-did not do anything-meg dropped a card-jason made cards , crystal's mom came by next day.... crystal found out that MElissa's fetus is has serious birthdefacts.. Jack G, seems to be doing a little better...
sat, Nov 25 leigh anne gray's last day..at cotuit.... kids sick over weekend did not due much-running out of money,,,,
11-29 the word is that melissa linhares child's a girl autumn rain, is a still born.
crystal very depressed... spoke with melissa spilanne on the phone about christmas....charlie brown chirstmas 41st showing...
nov 29 Crystal and meliisa went up to boston-only to find out that they were just doing blood tests....jd called and said jack maybe coming home....

 

DECEMBER 2006
early december melissa saga with autumn rain continues....
sometime around here biz goes to jail... again....
December 6 or 7th something crystal grandmother charlotte (mcfadden) dalton dies...

DEC 14 crystal starts new job at nursing home.. Work christmas party at carol masotta's....All workers but sandy attend, also karen kent, nicole and chuck...
nicole shows us brian moniz new book....

dec 15 crystal depressed ...have trouble finding black bag....donald rumsfeld finally gone, d-mat comes to boston....
dec 21 go to visit jason's doctor-------
dec 22 oir something..--a friday on vacation....debbie came by and dropped off a shitload of toys,,,
21/22 Visit Jim....
23s missed jak's b-day, pa came with his chrimsas gifts....
24 s Celebrated chrimsas with meg, lukas, ma and the kids...
25 Celebrated christmas with Spillanes etc. =no DAVE.
Around this time hear that Jefff Hinners broke leg...

This is my Christmas card to my friend Treeci,

They tell me this is a Christmas card but I don't see any biblical content or mangers , instead it has a snowman, a reindeer and somewhat misplaced bluebird.
Maybe they do not know what mangers look like in China.. What I want to know is what kind of Christmas cards would Jesus buy ? Maybe he gets complimentary boxes of the cards from the people at the card companies.
On the card instead you get that great symbol of Artic transport - the reindeer. Nowadays, they would be replaced by a snowmobile or a airplane. Maybe now with global warning Santa can take a boat...

On the radio the DJ is playing "Mary's Boy Child" by Boney M.. Was there a "Mary's Girl Child"? My cat is destroying the stocking stuffers because there was his Christmas cat-nip in on the bag. How is that non-believers like cats and dogs rate X-mas gifts? If you celebrate Kwanzaa do you give your dog a gift?

Here in Massachusetts I have to wonder this-Can you really in good conscience do a Yankee swap in Red Sox nation? Josh Groban is singing O holy Night ". Isn't he Jewish? Did you know that Joshua and Jacob are the Number one name for twins ? Do they do Christmas in Oregon. Ever listen to "Do they know it's Christmas" for some reason Bob Geldof chose five or six young British guys with long 80's style hair to sing lead on that record. Why he picked Simon Le Bon I don't know, But Oh Boy, that Boy George could sing !

Happy Kwanzaa!
!2-26 Missy leaves for Oregon..

30-31 over at Bessie's. all carroll were there. Problems with JAson..
1 New years eve home with the kids..




cherty.